#oneaday Day 148: Stream Success

I done a stream! It went pretty well, and I enjoyed myself. Even had a few people chatting along. If you want to catch up on it, here it is archived on my YouTube channel:

As you can hopefully see from the thumbnail, we were playing the delightfully named Mon-Yu: Defeat Monsters And Gain Strong Weapons And Armour – You May Be Defeated But Don't Give Up. Become Stronger. I Believe There Will Be A Day When The Heroes Defeat The Devil King. This is a dungeon crawler by Experience, makers of, among other things, the Spirit Hunter horror adventures I've been playing recently.

I obviously talk more about the game in the stream itself, but my first impressions after a 3-hour session are very positive. It's really interesting how Experience manage to make what is ostensibly the same kind of game feel cool and different between all their different titles. Mon-Yu is pitched as an entry-level dungeon crawler, but there are plenty of interesting little wrinkles for genre veterans, such as being level capped on each dungeon, meaning you have to figure out how to deal with the bosses without just outlevelling them.

There's also an interesting equipment system, where equipment gains experience as you use it alongside the characters. Equipment has a "rank" which determines how much it can level up, so sometimes you have to make a decision between keeping your upgraded items or taking a temporary hit to your effectiveness while you power up something with a higher cap.

There's also a really great "rapid battle" system, where if you know what you're doing you can get all your characters to auto-attack or repeat their last actions without having to wait for all the animations and log entries to appear on screen. Combine this with the fact that the game has no random encounters — and by its level-capped structure, it discourages grinding to a certain extent — and you have a really interesting take on what has, over the course of the last few years, become one of my favourite subgenres.

Anyway, it's half past two in the morning now because I made a video about sauce after finishing the stream. Watch out for that on my channel later next week. For now, I must sleep!

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#oneaday Day 147: Saturday Night is for Streaming

Well, it is this week, anyway. Andie is going out for a friend's birthday in the evening, so I thought I might take the opportunity to do a bit of streaming. You, dear reader, are welcome to stop by. Here's my Twitch channel. I'll be streaming from about 8pm UK time, all being well, and the duration will depend on how much fun I'm having and whether anyone is actually chatting. I plan to go for at least an hour or two, though.

The game I've picked to stream is one I deliberately haven't started yet. It's Experience's dungeon crawler Mon-Yu: Defeat Monsters and Gain Strong Weapons and Armor. You May Be Defeated, but Don’t Give Up. Become Stronger. I Believe There Will Be a Day When the Heroes Defeat the Devil King. I have picked this for several reasons:

I like Experience games.
I like dungeon crawlers.
It has a silly name.
As I understand it, it's a fairly light and breezy take on the dungeon crawler, so it should be eminently suitable for chatting while playing.

Now I'm sure anyone who is all about "optimising" their Twitch experience would recommend I play something people have actually heard of. But if you've ever paid my YouTube channel a visit you will know that I don't really give a shit about baiting the algorithm and getting huge viewing figures.

In fact, as I've discussed previously, I actually don't like it when a video does well, because after you crash through a certain number of views, people start to get a bit more mean and I'm not a big fan of that. So I'd rather just host a nice little comfortable stream for friends to drop in on as they see fit — and perhaps a few newcomers can pop along and learn a bit about a game they haven't seen before alongside me.

Streaming is something that, I know, you have to work hard at in order to get anywhere. To be honest, I'm not so fussed about trying to "make partner" or "go affiliate" or whatever — the thing that appeals to me about streaming more than anything else right now is the prospect of potentially making some human connections with people. I have been so bereft of good company beyond my wife and cats in recent years that I want to try various means of potentially meeting new folks. And streaming would seem like a potentially solid means of discovering people with similar interests that I might get along with.

I know that won't happen immediately. I'm fine with that. I've recorded lots of Let's Plays for YouTube, so I am intimately familiar with how to talk rubbish entirely to myself while playing a video game. But if some good conversation happens to come about? So much the better. We shall see, I guess.

Anyway, tomorrow evening, 8pm UK time. I'll let you work out what that is in your region. Let's hunt some monsters and have a good time!

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#oneaday Day 139: Non-specific ramblings

I'll level with you, dear reader, I don't really know what to write about tonight, and it's already twenty past midnight, so I decided I would just start typing and see what came out. I had been looking for inspiration in past blog posts, but ended up just reading them rather than taking any actual ideas from them. It's times like this that I'm glad I've managed to keep this one site up and running for so long — even though it has had a few challenges in the last year in particular.

But anyway. Looking back at the blog posts I wrote more than 10 years ago — I was idly browsing through entries from January 2011 — I found it striking to ponder how some things have very much stayed the same (depression, anxiety, loneliness) and others have changed quite a bit.

In one post, for example, I noted a modest ambition of mine as being able to one day buy a brand-new car. To date, I have done that not once, but twice. Well, kind of. I got roped into one of those hire-purchase schemes because I am not good at talking to salespeople, and when the term on one was concluded, I was faced with either paying up several thousand more pounds to keep the car I'd already paid several thousand pounds into on a month-by-month basis, or switching to another new car and continue paying for that on a month-by-month basis.

Not having several thousand pounds to spare at the time, I chose the latter option, which resulted in me getting a worse car for more money. But at least when that one was up, I did have the money to spare to just finish purchasing it outright. Regrettably, it was due to my inheritance from my last remaining grandparent passing away — thanks, Nan D — but that same car is still sitting comfortably on my driveway and will hopefully last a good few years more yet.

Back in 2011, I don't think I would have ever contemplated having a nearly-new piano, which I do now. Of course, 2011 was right when I was in the middle of one of the worst periods of my life, having recently separated from my first wife and started enduring what, at the time, I thought was the great indignity of having to move back in with my parents. (My mental state was not good at the time. I mean, it's not good now, but it was really bad then. I am now, at least, genuinely and honestly grateful for that safety net I had and wouldn't like to think of what might happened to me had my parents not saved me from a very bad situation. But enough of that for now.)

On the whole, my life in 2024 is in a much better place than it was in 2011. I have a stable job that I like in a field I'm proud to be part of, a decent income, an incredibly supportive and understanding wife whom I love very much, two wonderful cats whom I also love very much, and a game collection that would blow the mind of my teenage self. In terms of general "life situation", I can't complain all that much.

But I miss people. As a socially anxious and introverted person, I'm sure that's not something the me of a decade or two back would have ever thought I'd say, but man. Loneliness fucking blows. And the longer it goes on, the harder it feels like it is to do something about it. There are people I probably could reach out to and attempt to rekindle past friendships, but what does one say in that situation, and via what medium?

I feel like I've had about a decade of everyone I know drifting away from me for one reason or another — or perhaps me drifting away from them, or perhaps both — and now I just don't really know how to handle that. I would like nothing more than to return to the good old days of the "Squadron of Shame" club on 1up.com and our later website and podcast, but I wouldn't even know where to begin recapturing those good old days — or even if it's possible to do so.

The one positive thing I've found in recent months is that social network BlueSky has a pleasing "early 2010s" Twitter vibe to it right now, and that is gradually helping me to build up a sense of online confidence that has been severely knocked over the course of the last decade or so.

That's a start, at least, as loathe as I am to rely on a social network website for interacting with people, knowing as I know now that all these services eventually go down the route of enshittification. Real-life, meanwhile, I have a lot more work to do in, as my present physical condition means that I'm afraid and/or ashamed to see anyone I used to know in person because of the amount of weight I gained over the COVID years, so that's going to be a harder, more long-term project, but, well, I guess I have plenty of time on my hands.

Well, then, how about that. "Nothing to write about," he says, then goes and rambles on for nearly a thousand words. I guess that's the approach to take when I can't think of anything, then. Just sit down and write. That's what #oneaday has always been about. And that's what I'll continue to do.

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#oneaday Day 135: Just one is fine

As I type this, I can overhear my wife listening to some YouTuber I hate the sound of promising to "review every celebrity brand make-up". And this reminded me of a weird trend that is specifically a YouTube thing, whereby it seems like looking at just one thing is never enough, you've always got to do every instance of a thing.

I Ate At Every Margaritaville In the Country. I Watched Every Barbie Movie. I Played Every Poorly Reviewed Soulslike Game on Steam. This particular "style" of video always seems to be combined with some sort of deliberate suffering — both for the presenter and the viewer, I'd wager — and honestly, it just doesn't appeal to me at all. I'm the sort of person who would much rather take their time over exploring something sprawling in depth and detail than attempting to cram it all into one video — because I can't help but feel if you're cramming a massive amount of things into one video, each individual thing isn't going to get much of a look-in, is it?

I realise this is the point of some of these videos, either to highlight the fact that the many instances of Thing are almost identical to one another and thus can't really be distinguished, but it still irks me somewhat — especially when it comes to a lineup of things that is quite varied such as, say, the output of a particular software company. A video along the lines of "I Played Every Blizzard Game" feels like it would do none of the games any real justice, because each one is very different from the last and deserves its time to shine. Hell, even "I Watched Every Barbie Movie" is probably doing at least some of the Barbie movies a disservice.

My thinking along these lines is why I handled the "Atari A to Z Flashback" series on my YouTube channel as I did. Atari Flashback Classics for Nintendo Switch had 150 games, so I made 150 videos. It took a long time, but I came out of it feeling like I'd completed a worthwhile project — and I absolutely gained some new appreciation for a bunch of games from among that 150 that I otherwise wouldn't have if I'd just given them all a cursory glance and been done within 20 minutes.

Now I'm not saying that everything has to be an epic, long series or anything, and I suspect what I'm describing is more of a "me problem" than anything else. But I know that I, personally, would much rather take my time going through something with a lot of component parts, giving each piece time to digest and myself the opportunity to come to some conclusions that I might not otherwise have been able to if I was racing through to meet my "content deadline".

I guess that isn't what people want these days, though. They want short, quick-fire, snappy — because the modern Web has been set up to pander primarily to those with no attention span. But, as I've argued on several previous occasions, I fear that this just creates a vicious cycle, whereby people's attention spans get shorter and shorter, and the quality and depth people go into when writing or producing videos suffers as a result.

If someone doesn't have the attention span to stick around for more than 3 seconds, that's not my problem; that is very much their problem. I am gratified to see the recent growth in "newsletters" (or blogs, as we used to call them) that present long-form articles intended to be sat down with and savoured; they're not for everyone, sure, but it does please me to know that there are other people out there who enjoy life on the verbose side of things, and they don't care if they "lose" some people due to the sheer length of what they post. As I say, that's a reader problem, not a writer problem. No-one told Charles Dickens not to spend so many fucking pages describing fog — instead, he just gave anyone who couldn't handle it the finger, and his work continues to be regarded as a classic regardless. No-one's going to remember the names of any YouTube Shorts or TikTok creators in 50 years.

I think I got off the point somewhere. But yeah. Review one thing at a time, please. Then I might take your opinions seriously.

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#oneaday Day 128: Imminent Holiday

As I may have mentioned once or twice recently, we're going on holiday tomorrow. We'll be away from Monday to Friday visiting Center Parcs in Elveden Forest, which has been a thoroughly nice place to have some time away on all the previous occasions we've visited.

My intentions for this holiday are to unplug almost completely. I will post on this blog daily because of the whole #oneaday thing, but outside of that, I intend to avoid any sort of attachment to the Internet whatsoever, except where absolutely necessary to research things. That means I am making the following promises to myself:

I will not worry about writing anything for MoeGamer or making any sort of video for YouTube.
I will not poke my head in on Discord channels that are likely to annoy me.
I will not look at Twitter at all.
I will minimise my use of Bluesky.

I haven't really talked about the last one at all, but as you may have surmised from the sidebar, I have been dipping my toe back into social media with Bluesky recently. And for the most part, I've found it a thoroughly pleasant environment that feels very much like Twitter did in the early days. It's very left-leaning, which can at times be a little insufferable, and wherever you look you're very likely to run into either a particularly horny furry or someone proud of the fact they're wearing a cage on their cock, but for the most part it has been a remarkably stress-free social media experience so far.

Part of the reason for this is that the platform is built to discourage "dunking", whereas Twitter outright incentivises it these days. The main way Bluesky differs from Twitter is through its absolutely nuclear block function, which means that if someone quote-posts or replies to someone they have subsequently blocked, if you are following the person who made the quote-post or reply, the original post will appear as blocked to you also. This discourages people from going "looking for trouble" because you can't even see the username of the blocked post. This can be frustrating at times if you missed the original context, but for the most part I think it's a positive thing.

So anyway, as a result of all that, and the fact I have a few friendly faces there, I have been using Bluesky a bit recently, and thus, if I'm going to share anything about the holiday that isn't on this blog, I'll likely do so there. If you're a Bluesky user and want to follow me, here.

But yes. Anyway, the main point of this post is to note that I will be disconnecting from the greater part of the Internet as much as humanly possible while I am away, because I need it. I need some time away where I just don't put any unnecessary pressure on myself, or potentially put myself in situations where I might end up getting annoyed. I'm tempted to outright leave a few Discord servers to remove the temptation altogether, but probably won't go that far.

This holiday is to rest, relax and genuinely get away from it all. My mental health has been in the toilet of late, and the Internet has played a big part in creating that situation. So instead I'm going to be among the trees, play some video games, go swimming and look at friendly deer. We might go and fire a crossbow (not at the deer) and play some pool, too. We haven't decided yet. But it's going to be nice.

Today, meanwhile, it's last-minute packing and tidying up ahead of my mother-in-law coming to look after the cats — sorry burglars, the house will still be occupied while we're away — and perhaps finishing off Silent Hill 2 later.

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#oneaday Day 126: What is WordPress doing?

You may recall a little while back I had an issue with my WordPress.com blog, the original incarnation of this site. The site's "automated anti-spam" system had flagged my blog and taken it offline. I hasten to add that there is, of course, no spam or any other sort of inappropriate, objectionable or illegal content either on the original form of this site or this present incarnation. It was a mistake on their part, brought about by WordPress.com's parent company Automattic increasingly relying on "AI" (spit) for more and more of their functionality.

This was the first time I'd had an issue with WordPress.com since joining in 2006. But it was serious enough that it made me move my site over to a self-hosted WordPress.org installation, which is what you're reading right now.

For those unfamiliar with the distinction, WordPress.com is a free-with-paid-options blogging service where you can set up a blog or other website quickly and easily. Its free offering has gradually gotten worse over the years, now placing a rather obtrusive "Made with WordPress" banner on new sites created, but for the most part, I've always been satisfied with it for my purposes, particularly because, having been a user for so long, I had been "grandfathered" in to not having things like that banner ad.

WordPress.org, meanwhile, is an open-source project that maintains WordPress itself, which is a content management system and blogging platform you can install on any website. The main distinction is that WordPress.com is a service provided to you, while WordPress.org is both a piece of Web-based software and the community surrounding it. And one of the key differences is that while with WordPress.com, you're stuck with preset configurations unless you pay through the nose for their extortionate "Business" plan, with WordPress.org you can tinker with and customise the core software as you see fit, either by fiddling with the code yourself, or by installing plugins.

I was dismayed to see how much "AI" rot had infested WordPress.com, and it made me no longer want to associate with the platform. Now, it seems, there is trouble with WordPress.org too, as reported by the excellent tech blog 404 Media.

I have not followed this whole saga, but it seems Automattic is having a bit of a spat with a company called "WP Engine", which is a service that hosts websites built using WordPress. Apparently Automattic's CEO Matt Mullenweg branded WP Engine a "cancer to WordPress" and complained about them and their investors not contributing "sufficiently" to the open source project, and that WP Engine's use of the "WP" brand might confuse users into thinking it is an official WordPress thing.

I can sort of see his point on that last thing — though WP Engine maintains their usage is covered by fair use — but this whole thing appears to escalated beyond reasonable proportion at this point. WP Engine sent Automattic a cease and desist letter telling Mullenweg to stop having a tantrum, and Mullenweg responded with what he calls a "scorched Earth nuclear approach", sending his own cease and desist letter to WP Engine.

It didn't stop there. Mullenweg banned WP Engine from accessing resources on WordPress.org, including, among other things, the plugin directory and the ability to automatically update plugins and themes. Not only that, he has raised a significant number of eyebrows by adding a peculiar checkbox to the WordPress.org login page, asking users to confirm that they are "not affiliated with WP Engine in any way, financially or otherwise".

This, of course, has had people asking what the consequences are for not ticking that box. And it seems a few individuals who have been longtime contributors to the WordPress.org project have been banned from the community simply for asking "what the hell, bro?", to paraphrase.

This is concerning. Not being able to access the WordPress.org community doesn't preclude anyone from building their site using the WordPress.org software, but it is a problem for those who have been helping to maintain and update it. On top of that, some contributors are quite reasonably concerned about potential legal repercussions if they do not tick the box, believing Mullenweg to be just that petty.

My simple question is… well, it's "what the hell, bro?"

WordPress, in both its .com and .org incarnations, powers a significant chunk of the modern Web. And while blogs have somewhat fallen out of favour since the rise of social media, there are still thriving communities of both WordPress.com and WordPress.org bloggers regularly posting — and who, more to the point, likely have a significant body of work hosted on some form of WordPress derivative at this point, which it will be a pain to move somewhere else.

It's depressing to see both incarnations of WordPress fall foul of enshittification and CEO arrogance. Because that's what this is. Whether it's the AI garbage being rammed into WordPress.com or whatever the fuck Mullenweg thinks he's doing with WordPress.org right now, the WordPress name is being dragged through the mud right now. And that's unfortunate because, AI garbage aside, WordPress is still a great product.

I hope this situation is resolved sooner rather than later. And in the meantime, if you're still blogging on WordPress.com, you might want to pop into your Site Settings menu and tick this checkbox just so your blog isn't scraped for AI shite.

This site is staying where it is and in the incarnation it presently has for the moment. I really hope I don't have to migrate again, and that I can go back to recommending WordPress like I always used to. Right now, though, Automattic is a company I would advise most folks to avoid like the plague.

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#oneaday Day 122: "We Need" and the cult of perpetual dissatisfaction

As someone who works in marketing, there are two little words I'm bloody sick of seeing. Because they always show up beneath announcements of cool things, prompts for discussion… anything, really.

"We Need".

It doesn't matter what you're posting online, someone somewhere will decide that the thing you just posted about is completely irrelevant, and that they have decided to take on the heavy burden of representing the entire audience of Thing.

"We Need".

Sometimes it's a thing you know is coming anyway, so you can't say anything. Sometimes it's a thing that has been previously requested, but which isn't practical right this second. And sometimes it's a completely outlandish, unreasonable suggestion that no-one who knows the slightest thing about the business you're working in would declare with such confidence that "We Need". Always, though, it's something other than the thing you have just posted about.

I know I'm not alone in this, because when I look at marketing posts from other companies, I inevitably see at least one "We Need" in the wild, fulfilling the exact same function outlined above. Talking about anything other than the thing that has just been announced or promoted, and instead speaking on everyone else's behalf that "we" are absolutely, completely and utterly entitled to a thing that hasn't even come up in conversation once.

Back around the Mass Effect 3 ending debacle — remember that? — I took umbrage at games journalists calling gaming enthusiasts "entitled" for whining at developers and publishers. I still don't think productive discussions were had back around then. But honestly, some 10+ years later, I 100% get it. It's downright exhausting to want to share things you're personally genuinely excited about that you've been working on, only to be hit with the inevitable "We Need"s.

I'm pretty sure this all stems from a broader issue online: the cult of perpetual dissatisfaction, where a certain, loud-mouthed proportion of people on the Internet are never satisfied with the thing that has just been put in front of them, no matter how excellent it is. Cool new thing just announced? Yesterday's news. "We need" the next thing, immediately, preferably sooner. Long-awaited and much-requested upgrade to something confirmed? Pish. "We need" something completely unrelated. Product getting excellent reviews from press and public alike? Balls. "We need" something that no-one else has asked for, ever.

This ties in with another theory I have about modern online discourse: the fact that there are people out there who don't feel like they have anything to say if they're not criticising. Saying "this is good" is anathema to them, because then they can't "offer feedback" or "give constructive criticism", even where none was asked for.

By contrast, I've often found that these people tend to do a better job of shutting down conversation than actually starting a worthwhile discussion. I've lost count of the number of times I've expressed my appreciation and enjoyment of something, only for someone to come along and feel the need to list everything they think is wrong with it, everything "We Need" to see fixed about it. When that happens, I just lose all interest in attempting to have a discussion, because that person isn't interested in knowing what I liked about the thing. They just want the opportunity to "offer feedback".

Feedback can be a helpful, useful thing under the right circumstances. But it needs to be asked for, or, in extreme cases, obviously needed. And by "needed" I mean "there is something demonstrably wrong with the thing", not "this one dude doesn't like the way the thing does something".

"We Need."

We need to learn to be satisfied and happy with things, because perpetual dissatisfaction is no way to live. Just stop for a moment and enjoy the thing. It's much more fun than never reaching a point where you can do that.

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#oneaday Day 121: Tedious Nostalgia

I'm all for nostalgia — hell, most of my online presence is built around it these days — but I'm becoming increasingly tired of social media accounts that are nothing but what I'm going to call "nostalgia fluff". What I mean by this is that they post something that effectively says "This is a thing that existed." and then don't provide any sort of additional commentary or context. To put it another way, they are indulging in the exact behaviour depicted in this excellent video from the one and only Mr Biffo of Digitiser:

There's a simple explanation for this, of course: it's engagement bait, as is 90% of anything on any social media platform these days. By posting "Count Duckula is a cartoon series that was once on television", the poster is counting on people showing up in the replies by the score to say "Wow! I remember this!" and "SO NOSTALGIC!" and suchlike.

Trouble is, all of that is completely fucking meaningless. It rarely starts a meaningful discussion, and the person who posted the thing in the first place certainly isn't interested in leading a discussion, otherwise they would have posted something more substantial in the first place. So why do it at all?

Number go up, of course. Those sweet likes and shares. The cynical would note that many engagement bait accounts aim to attract large numbers of views, comments and shares so they can then sell on the account to someone else, but this doesn't always happen. Some people really are convinced that their context and commentary-free acknowledgements that something indeed existed at some indeterminate point in the past are "good content". Some of these people will even get snippy if someone "steals" their "content", by which I mean posting something about the same thing they posted.

There's a difference between this sort of thing and what I do. When I write an article or make a video about something, I'm not doing so just to go "this existed, look how knowledgeable I am for knowing this thing existed". Rather, I do so for one of two reasons: one, to introduce the thing to other people, and that requires some additional context and commentary to explain why the thing is noteworthy; and two, to share my personal recollections of the thing in question, which often ties in with the first point.

That takes effort, though. That requires researching beyond a simple glance at Wikipedia to make sure you got the date right. That requires actual knowledge and experience, and a willingness to do something beyond the bare minimum to cater to the lowest common denominator online.

I often find myself annoyed at the perception that you "shouldn't" post anything too long or in-depth online, "because people won't bother to read/watch it". This, to me, just leads to a situation where you are encouraging something undesirable. By assuming everyone is as stupid as an attention-deficit social media addict who can't read more than a paragraph without wanting to Alt-Tab into Roblox, we just make that the norm. And that's what these low-effort nostalgia engagement bait accounts are doing: making the bare minimum the norm.

I find the idea that you should make things as short as possible "because people will click off within 3 seconds" or whatever kind of insulting. It's insulting to the people who don't click off within 3 seconds to assume that everyone's attention span is as addled as the worst people on the Internet, and it's insulting to me to suggest that if the thing I've done isn't "interesting" within 3 seconds it has no value. So far as I'm concerned, if someone is incapable of reading more than a paragraph of text or digesting a video that is more than 30 seconds long, I don't really want them looking at my stuff anyway. It's not for them.

That may sound gatekeepery but honestly I don't give a shit any more. I hate how much the Internet has become a race to the bottom, and I fear it's reached a point where it is actively harmful to both community and culture.

So I will keep going into things in as much depth as I damn well please, and if you don't have the attention span to deal with it, that is 100% your problem.

(I know none of you reading this fall into this category, of course. Keep being excellent.)

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#oneaday Day 103: A solution?

Following yesterday's ponderings, something blindingly obvious occurred to me earlier: there's quite a simple solution to what I was contemplating, and that is to actually finally start doing some streaming.

I've tried streaming a couple of times and not had a terrible time doing it, but I fell off from doing it because I didn't really set aside a specific time to do it and haven't (yet) put in the work to try and get any sort of "community" going. To be honest, it's that "work" part that kind of puts me off a bit; one of the nice things about YouTube is that I've been able to just sort of do it slowly and gradually build up an audience naturally without having to faff about promoting myself or whatnot.

Twitch is a platform that is still quite alien to me. There's a lot I don't like about it. It's noisy and filled with distracting features that don't play nice with my autistic brain. I feel certain portions of the Twitch audience have unreasonable expectations of what a streamer can be expected to do to keep them "entertained". And I've seen far, far too many people burn themselves out because they "needed" to get Partner, or Affiliate, or whatever their monetisation program is called.

But at the same time, I kind of like the idea of having a platform where I might be able to make some new friends, chatting about the stuff I love. If I do decide to kick off some streaming, I'll almost certainly keep it retro-focused — at least partly because in my study, which is the place that is really "set up" for streaming, I don't have either a gaming PC or a current-gen console — but I think there's plenty of potential to cover things there, between Evercade, the various mini systems I have (Atari 8-bit, Amiga, C64 and, later this year, Spectrum) and, of course, the gigantic Launchbox library I have on a 5TB hard drive.

It's kind of a scary prospect, though. Even more so than YouTube, Twitch is "putting yourself out there" and inviting comment from any old random who happens to stop by. I should probably comfort myself with the fact that the kind of people I wouldn't want to engage with probably wouldn't be watching retro gaming streams, anyway — but it's still somewhat nerve-wracking.

Perhaps I'll give it a go this weekend as a sort of trial run. My wife is going into town with a friend for a bit, so maybe I'll take the opportunity to try some bits and pieces out back then. If you'd like to stop by, here's my Twitch page. No promises, but I have mentally "pencilled this in" for this Saturday, and we'll see how it goes.

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#oneaday Day 102: Pondering YouTube... again

Having one of those days where I'm pondering my approach to YouTube. Y'see, my latest video, which covers Atari's Yars Rising and is essentially just a video version of this article, has gone and done very well. Relatively speaking, I mean, and by that I mean it's broken a thousand views.

For a small-scale sub-5,000 subscriber YouTuber like me, getting anything to break 1,000 views is significant. I've had a few successes over the last couple of years, and most of them have had something in common: they've been pre-scripted videos, as opposed to the "Let's Play" style I built my channel on, and which I think I probably enjoy doing the most.

Probably my most significant success to date is the above video, which covers the excellent modern isometric racer Super Woden GP. This video has, to date, managed 87,000 views and is still trickling along. This was absolutely overwhelming to watch happen, to such a degree that I ended up having to "pause" the comments section because I was getting so many people commenting.

My second best is the above, which covers Moonring, an excellent modern take on the classic Ultima RPG formula, developed by one of the folks who worked on the original Fable. Plus it's free. This one has been a slow burn; to date it's done over 29,000 views, but it got off to quite a slow start. Compare the graphs for these two videos.

Here's Super Woden GP 2:

And here's Moonring:

Notice that the latter one spiked for some inexplicable reason about 250 days after I posted it. I don't really know what happened here; I can only assume that it got shared somewhere and a lot of people showed up. But the analytics seem to suggest that YouTube just decided to suddenly start pushing it one day, so it started appearing when people were just browsing around the site:

The Yars Rising video hasn't done anything like the numbers of these two, but it's also still early days for it — at the time of writing, it's just two days old. But it's had a strong early push:

The one thing that the Yars Rising video has in common with the Super Woden GP 2 one in particular is that it was something timely. I made the video shortly after Yars Rising came out, when there was still some discussion going on about it. That, presumably, helps. But it doesn't account for what happened with the Moonring video.

Anyway, the point is, any time something like this happens, I end up wondering if I should change tack a bit with YouTube. The approach I've taken for the vast majority of my videos is one where I introduce a game with a bit to camera at the start, then do a "Let's Play", where I explain the game as if I'm sitting down to play it with the viewer.

Some of these videos have done quite nicely. This one, on Seven Cities of Gold for Atari 8-bit, broke a thousand views:

As did this one on Beamrider for Atari 2600, though that's over the very long term:

I like making those videos. I think they're a good way of helping people to understand how to play and figure out the appeal of retro games. And yet the numbers don't lie: what gets people watching is pre-scripted, more "review-style" videos.

Don't get me wrong, those are fun to write and to make, also — plus I can generally cross-post them between YouTube and MoeGamer for two completely different audiences to see them — but any time I ponder maybe switching to doing that kind of video all the time, I think of the people who have very kindly stuck with me since the earliest days of me fumbling around with the platform, figuring out what the hell I actually wanted to do with my YouTube channel.

I suspect it's not an "all or nothing" question. I suspect the answer is something I know already: that the optimal approach would be to do a bit of both. Perhaps "Let's Play" style videos on simpler, earlier games, and more elaborate scripted affairs for more complex, longer games.

I don't know. I'm just thinking out loud here. If I was a bigger channel I'd just say "fuck it" and start a second channel then split the two types of video between the two channels, but it seems foolish to do that as a small creator.

But anyway. I'm glad the Yars Rising video is doing reasonable numbers, at least. It's a cool game and I'm glad people want to know more about it. So if nothing else, I can be glad about that!

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