#oneaday Day 889: A thoroughly agreeable evening

Spent the evening with some old friends I haven't seen for ages — and I get the impression that despite us all being in a group chat together, they hadn't just hung out with one another for an evening for some time, either. So not only did I have a pleasant evening, I also feel like I did a certain amount of good by bringing people together.

It was a pretty simple evening, nothing fancy, and definitely no getting absolutely hammered like in years gone by. I did drink two large bottles of Smirnoff Ice, however, and didn't really feel much effect. Disappointing? Perhaps, but getting plastered was not the objective for the evening. It would have probably been inadvisable, even, given the fact I have to be up early for tomorrow's happenings.

We just hung out like it was old times, and it was like the last 20+ years had never passed. We played video games, we stayed up too late, we had conversations far too offensive to print here. This is good. This is exactly what I needed. This is what I have been missing for a frustratingly long period of time.

There's this assumption that you "grow out" of childish things, but if this evening proved one thing, it's that you absolutely do not have to — even if you're married, as two of the three of us are, and even if you have kids, as one of us does. (If you'd asked me which one of us was the most likely to have kids 20 years ago, it would not have been the one who now does have kids, but life rarely goes the way you expect, as both bitter and sweet experiences over the years have taught me.)

One interesting side-effect of the evening is that, having been re-watching a lot of the Game Grumps Super Mario Maker series recently, I thought I would introduce my friends to Super Mario Maker 2. I am normally not a big fan of the absurdly difficult levels — I even wrote about how I dislike how so much of that game's culture revolves around super-hard levels — but attempting (and eventually succeeding!) at beating a particularly troublesome level this evening formed a nice centrepiece for the other activities.

One of my friends was also a big fan of the Street Fighter edition Evercade Alpha, so I may have made a sale there. Even if not, he seemed to have a blast playing through Champion Edition over the course of the evening.

So all in all, this evening was pretty much everything I hoped it would be, and now I am heading to bed, far too late to be practical for an early start tomorrow, feeling more content and happy than I have done for quite some time.

Almost like you should do this sort of thing more often. Who'd have thought it?!

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#oneaday Day 888: Movieretro

One thing I've been considering doing for quite a while, particularly since second-hand physical media is often very cheap these days, is revisiting a bunch of movies that I remember watching and enjoying as a kid. In many cases, I haven't seen these movies since being a kid, so I am quite curious to see how many of them hold up from a modern perspective as a kind-of sort-of "grown up".

I haven't got around to doing anything about this yet, mind, because I tend to find when I get into a place with a bunch of DVDs (CEX, say) I often find myself agonising over the amount of choice available, and also wondering if I will ever actually make the time to sit down and watch these movies, were I to buy them. I have several anime box sets that I have never watched, for example.

This is all just a matter of self-control and taking ownership of your free time, however. I used to be good at this! Back at university, I remember I spent quite a lot of my time watching and re-watching favourite movies — I had about five DVDs, so I watched The Matrix, Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and Snatch a whole lot — and still had plenty of time to go out and socialise, do my university work and still play video games. So what is stopping me now? Absolutely nothing, that's what.

Well, okay. One think is a mild inconvenience to this plan, and that is the fact that some combination of the labyrinthine combination of HDMI cables tucked away behind the TV in the living room means that I do not, in fact, have anything connected to the television that is capable of playing a DVD or Blu-Ray without running afoul of anti-piracy measures such as HDCP or that weird thing where the PS2 would turn DVDs green. I have fixed this in the past with the simple purchase of an external DVD drive for the PC, but the one that I bought appears to have packed up, so if I want to do this again, I will need to purchase another one.

The alternative, of course, is to just watch them on the PS4 in the bedroom, which does quite happily play DVDs and Blu-Rays without issue, but sometimes you want to watch in the living room, not the bedroom, you know? It's very much a first world problem, I know, but it is a bit annoying.

But what to watch? Well, there are a whole bunch that spring to mind. I'm sure at least some of these are probably regarded as "problematic" (ugh) by modern audiences, but I remember watching and enjoying these as a kid, and I would very much be open to the idea of revisiting them. In no particular order:

E.T.: The Extra-Terrestrial
Batteries Not Included
Short Circuit/Short Circuit 2
Flight of the Navigator
The Last Starfighter
Look Who's Talking/Look Who's Talking Too
Ghostbusters/Ghostbusters II
The Back to the Future trilogy
The Cat From Outer Space

I'm sure there are more, but those are the ones off the top of my head. To add to all that, there's a whole bunch of '80s and early '90s movies that my friends at school went apeshit for (often before they were "old enough" to watch them, certificate-wise) that I feel I probably "should" catch up on at some point, for the sake of having some sort of cultural understanding:

The Terminator/Terminator 2 (I've seen one of these, possibly the first one?)
Various Rocky movies
Various Rambo movies
Anything involving Bruce Lee
Robocop

I'm drawing a blank on anything beyond that, though. Suggestions are welcome! At some point I might even watch some of them. It'll give me something to write about if nothing else, right?

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#oneaday Day 887: PREVIEWS of FORTHCOMING ATTRACTIONS

Recorded and edited a bunch of videos over the course of the last few days, to be released over the course of the next few weeks. The first one is out right now, in fact. Go see me revisit the Atari 8-bit version of David Crane's Ghostbusters game right here!

These recording sessions have thrown up a nice mix of games that I've enjoyed exploring. We kicked off with the aforementioned Ghostbusters, which is a great game that is still pretty enjoyable to play — though I'm definitely out of practice. It's a solid example of how to do a good movie license game: rather than adapting the story of the movie slavishly, you simply make something that fits in with the overall vibe and concepts of the license, and do something creative from there. Ghostbusters works well not because it's a good adaptation of the movie specifically, but because it's a good game about being the Ghostbusters.

Also on Atari 8-bit, I took a look at a shoot 'em up called Humanoid that was a very late release from a Polish developer, and appears to be a game that has "borrowed" (or possibly stolen?) all the graphics from Hewson's Subterranea and bunged them into a game that is a little bit different. I couldn't find the story behind this one, so I do find myself wondering if it started life as an official port of Subterranea that was subsequently cancelled, then they figured they might as well do something with the work that had already been done. Waste not, want not and all that.

Finally on the Atari 8-bit front, I took a look at a type-in listing from ANALOG magazine called Incoming! This is a very simple game in which you control a rotating but immobile machine gun turret, and have to blast down aerial targets. It initially appears simple, but gets impressively frantic as the stages progress, and there's a lot more to it than just simple blasting. Losing points for each shot fired forces you to be tactical, and the stages alternating between dropping paratroopers and city blocks on you keeps things thoroughly interesting along the way.

Switching over to the ST, I actually ended up recording four videos because when preparing my "A to Z" I inadvertently skipped the letter "E" completely accidentally, so I had to fit something in. First up, though, came "D", and I finally took a look at Driller, the first of the "Freescape" 3D games. I've been putting off exploring this one because even after reading the manual I didn't really understand how to play it, but having actually spent some time with it now I have a much better understanding of it.

The "E" I quickly had to fit in took the form of Paul Woakes' excellent port of his classic Encounter! to the Atari ST. This is a lot better than I remember, and I really enjoyed spending some time with this one. I love the 8-bit version but always had somewhat mixed memories of the ST version. Turns out that was mostly in my head; the ST version is excellent.

For "F" I brought in an all-time favourite: Flood by Bullfrog. This is an oft-forgotten part of the legendary studio's heritage, but it's a perfect example of what they brought to the table in the 16-bit era: lots of audio-visual polish and solid gameplay that provides interesting twists on conventional formulae. Flood is a platform game at heart, but its little tweaks to the basic genre standard make it thoroughly enjoyable, and still a lot of fun to play today.

Finally, for "G" I took on The Grail, a showcase title for the Talespin adventure game creation software package. While The Grail is only middling as a game in its own right, its existence as a quasi-visual novel long before any of the Japanese visual novels ever made it to the West is thoroughly intriguing to me — and makes me want to check out the Talespin software itself in its own right.

Anyway, all those are rendering and uploading now, so I think I can say I've had a nice, productive day. Now I think it's time to settle down for a few hours of Zelda! I've definitely earned them.

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#oneaday Day 886: Non-celebratory party

When times feel bleak and difficult, it is sometimes nice to retreat into the past in your own way, and think about some enjoyable or at least interesting times you remember fondly. For me, some of the most memorable occasions in my Past Life involved parties.

Growing up, as a kid, I always worked on the sort of assumption that a "party" was a celebratory thing you did when there was a particular occasion to… well, celebrate. Usually a birthday. I remember several birthday parties I attended as a child, usually at the "Reading Room" in the village, and they typically involved playing Pass the Parcel, that weird game where you had to put on a coat, scarf and hat and then eat a chocolate bar with a knife and fork, and, on a couple of occasions, actual entertainers. This kind of party I associate with cake, for probably obvious reasons.

As you get a bit older, though, the "celebration" bit of parties fades in favour of it simply being a "social gathering" of sorts. I must confess I still have the somewhat childish definition in my head whenever I hear the word "party", but, of course, I have experienced non-celebratory parties on a number of occasions in the past.

A lot of these occasions from my university days sort of blur into one another at this point, because the non-celebratory party, in my experience, tended to be an occasion with one primary activity: drinking until your brain spontaneously combusted. As such, many of my memories of parties from that period are somewhat fragmented, and I'm not sure what happened at which party. I guess it doesn't matter all that much; all that really does matter is that the experience happened, and I, for one reason or another, happen to remember it.

One party I do remember with a certain degree of specificity is an occasion when we, for some reason, ended up around at "Geography Beki's" house. I didn't know Geography Beki well — she was a classmate of one of my friends, so I had encountered her a couple of times, but not to any degree beyond "passing acquaintance" — but somehow everyone from my immediate friendship group ended up attending this party.

As parties went, it was relatively unremarkable, as I recall. The highlight of the evening was getting slowly more and more drunk in someone's bedroom, repeatedly listening to one track on Moby's Play album, because one of our number kept yelling "TRACK FIVE!" every time track five came to its conclusion. I say "highlight" of the evening; what I really mean is "this is the only thing I really remember in any great detail".

Another party I remember in somewhat blurry detail is one where I'm not even sure whose house it was or what I was doing there; my sole recollection of it was someone — possibly me, though I'm not even entirely sure of that — being sick out of a bedroom window and onto the corrugated plastic roof of the conservatory below. I believe a mop was hung out of the window in an attempt to get rid of the worst of the mess before it became a permanent feature on the rooftop.

Thinking about it, this may have been the same party at which two of my friends, each of whom were attending some form of martial arts club at the university, decided to try some moves on one another, and it escalated into at least one of the pair taking things rather more seriously than the event warranted. I recall the friend in question having an oddly furious look on their face, while the other just looked sort of bemused and amused at what was unfolding. It ended without any permanent damage happening to either of them.

These little events are all minor, stupid things, but I remember those moments oddly vividly, more than 20 years later in many cases. I don't really know why, either; I wouldn't describe them as particularly noteworthy incidents and definitely not things that went on to shape who I am today. But I do sort of miss them; I do sort of miss the normality of a whole bunch of people bundling around someone's house for no other reason than 1) it gave them somewhere out of the ordinary to get plastered and 2) perhaps to hang out with people whose company they could, at the very least, tolerate.

I don't know if I could handle a party like that these days. Probably not; as a socially anxious person, I often didn't handle those parties back then in the best way, and that social anxiety has only developed as I've got older and the Way The World Is has just pushed us all further apart from one another. But I still sort of miss them. If I could go back, I would probably try and enjoy those occasions a little more; evidently something about those times has remained precious enough to me to remember them for this long.

But anyway. I guess my meetup with my friends on Friday is going to be an extremely small-scale non-celebratory party of sorts. Except the only people in attendance are people I know and like. Sounds like an ideal solution to me!

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#oneaday Day 885: A day off is different from the weekend

I am, as I have previously noted, On Holiday this week. On Holiday in the sense that "I don't have to work" rather than "I am going anywhere", although I am taking a trip back to East Anglia towards the end of the week for various things I talked about the other day.

Today has been a day of pretty much nothing but Zelda, which means I don't have a whole lot to talk about other than Zelda, but I shall resist doing so for now as there has been a lot of Zelda recently. Instead, I thought I'd talk about how a midweek day off always feels just a little bit different from the weekend.

I'm not really sure why this is. I think it's most likely to do with the fact that you know under normal circumstances, at this time you would be doing work, but right now, you have no obligations. That, in itself, makes it feel like a separate and distinct thing — and, in my mind, made me feel like "I have earned a day off". Hence, the aforementioned day of nothing but Zelda.

But a day off from what if I'm already not working? Well, anything, really. I have some videos scripted and ready to record, but I thought about doing them today and my mind just went "nope, do as little as possible today", so for once I listened to it without guilt and did exactly that. I will probably make a start on these videos tomorrow.

In these busy, perpetually online days where at times it can feel like your whole life is on display whether or not you want it to be, it's easy to feel like you "should" constantly be "doing something". This is particularly true if you are someone who enjoys making things and posting them online — be they articles, videos, podcasts, anything like that. It's very easy to succumb to the temptation that "everything must be content" — when in fact, it's perfectly fine for some, even all of the things you do for fun, to be just for you.

I mean, yes, I am almost definitely going to write about Zelda when I've finished it, but writing about the games I have played is part of my process of enjoying them at this point. It helps me to reflect on what I've just played, what I liked about it, and it also, in years to come, serves as a record of the things I've enjoyed and the experiences I've had. It's nice to look back on all this, because it's surprisingly easy to forget individual things that you've spent your time doing as the years go by.

But aside from the knowledge I will write something up when I've finished Zelda (and likewise Final Fantasy Resonance), I am not worrying about turning these things into "content". I don't need to add another Zelda video to YouTube as there are almost certainly hundreds, thousands already. One might argue that, therefore, I don't need to add another Zelda article to the mix, either, but for me, posting a video and posting an article are two quite different things; the former requires a lot of forward planning to ensure I get the footage I want, while the latter is something I can do much more "on the fly" once I'm finished with something. And, as I say, it's basically part of my "hobby process" now, anyway; writing about the game and contemplating it after I've finished is as much a part of the routine as simply experiencing the thing.

Anyway, this is a lot of words to say I didn't really feel like making any videos today, so I didn't do that. I have enjoyed my day, regardless, and I feel somewhat revitalised to tackle the self-imposed challenges ahead of me tomorrow!

For now, though, back to Zelda…

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#oneaday Day 884: No more resisting. I am a Zelda fan

I have written about this a number of times in the past (most recently exactly a year ago, weirdly), but I think it's time to admit once and for all that I am, in fact, a fan of The Legend of Zelda.

This is not a controversial opinion, I know, but let me talk about it a little bit, because I find my own response to the series kind of interesting. I have, over the years, convinced myself that I am a bit "meh" on Zelda as a whole, and I'm not entirely sure why, given how I've always had a good time with it. With the recent Switch 2 remake of Ocarina of Time, though, there really is no mistaking it: The Legend of Zelda is, to me, one of the greatest series of video games ever created, and continues to be wonderful to this day, with nary a misstep to its name (aside from the CD-i games, but those don't really count).

(This is not an invitation for you to tell me how much you don't like Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom. I don't care.)

I mentioned in my post last year that a lot of my… resistance, I guess you'd call it? Yeah. A lot of my resistance to the series over the years stems from that period when Final Fantasy VII and Ocarina of Time were both the "big games" that my friends and I were playing through at almost the same time.

Final Fantasy VII had blown us all away with its spectacular, cinematic, deep and lengthy story and — to us as RPG newbies, anyway — unusual, interesting gameplay. Ocarina of Time, meanwhile, while undoubtedly a good game, just didn't feel quite as… impressive to our shallow, ill-informed eyes. We used to joke that after playing Final Fantasy VII, my friend Woody refused to believe that any game that came on fewer than three CDs would ever be any good — but we all secretly sort of felt something similar. Although in retrospect it's impressive quite what Ocarina of Time managed to achieve in 32MB of cartridge space — compared to Final Fantasy VII's three CDs, most of which were filled with FMV sequences — at the time it was hard not to feel like it was a bit less overtly… wow.

Then there was the "inverse hype" problem, where for a very long time prior to Ocarina of Time's release, it was hyped up as being akin to the Second Coming of Jesus, like all other video games were going to cease to matter; as if just standing within the shadow of Zelda 64 (as it was known prior to the Ocarina of Time subtitle being revealed) would cause every other game to spontaneously turn to dust and scatter on the wind. On the one hand, if you bought into this, it was exciting, but at the same time, it did, at times, feel a little excessive — especially for those of us who, at the time, had both PlayStations and Nintendo 64s and thus felt no real need for fanboyism or favouring one platform over another. Eventually, it just got kind of exhausting.

Looking back, of course, it was silly to compare Final Fantasy VII and Ocarina of Time, as they're both very different kinds of game that can — and do — quite happily coexist. Knowing that also allows me to view the Ocarina of Time remake on Switch 2 through relatively clear eyes. And you know what it's teaching me? I've actually always liked Ocarina of Time a lot more than I had previously thought or cared to admit.

You might think that this is just the shiny new remake talking — but honestly, the remake is so true to the N64 original in terms of structure and gameplay that it is helping me appreciate and remember things about the older incarnation — things that are amplified, but not changed, in the remake. Consequently, I know that if I were to boot up the N64 version right now, I'd have as good a time with it as I am with the Switch 2 version.

Like, for example, I'm sure there are at least some of you out there who have always thought Zelda is kind of twee nonsense. Little fairy kid with pointy ears skips through the forest and beats a big bad guy? Childish nonsense, surely. But no; spend some time with the Zelda series as a whole and you'll develop a firm appreciation of the fact that it is actually surprisingly dark on a fairly consistent basis — with Ocarina of Time, in many ways, being second only to its direct follow-up, Majora's Mask, in terms of moodiness.

I wouldn't necessarily go so far as to say the game has been designed with adults in mind, which is something I would say about the Metroid series, but there is definitely a strong amount of "fairy tale fucked-upness" about Zelda that, with my old and jaded eyes, I feel that if anything, I am appreciating more now than I ever did back in the day. It's the subtle things; the things that you wouldn't necessarily notice as a wide-eyed child, but which you appreciate as a cynical adult. Especially, yes, That Bombchu Lady.

And when I think back on the time I have spent with the Zelda series over the years, I can honestly say that I've never had a bad time with a Zelda game. This curious sense of "resistance" that I describe above sometimes prevents me from making much progress with them — particularly the sprawling quests of Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom — but, partway through Ocarina of Time as I am right now, I think I can quite comfortably and confidently say that yes, I am, in fact, a Zelda fan, and I really should get it out of my head that I am somehow not. And then, after I'm done with Ocarina of Time, finally get around to scratching Tears of the Kingdom off my "to complete" list, too.

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#oneaday Day 883: Just like old times... hopefully

I have the coming week off work. I am going to spend most of it just chilling and relaxing, because it's been an intense, stressful few months for various reasons, but towards the end of the time I am doing a few things: stopping by to visit my parents, attending the Retro Computer Festival at the Centre for Computing History in Cambridge (I will be bringing Evercades of various descriptions, though I will not be there in a "professional" capacity, just as an enthusiast), and, arguably most importantly in my head, I am seeing a couple of friends from my school days that I haven't seen for a good few years at this point.

This little encounter is actually quite important to me, because as those of you who know me reasonably well will probably know, I have had some… difficult experiences with people I thought were my friends of late, and that has left me feeling rather depressed, distrustful and hesitant to "let people in" — or perhaps to open myself up, to put it another way. It is something that, unsurprisingly, I have talked about a lot at therapy. Over the course of those discussions it has become clear — well, even clearer than it was — that I have been hurt by those experiences, and that, in turn, has left me feeling lonely, not great about myself generally, and somewhat adrift in terms of just… having people to hang out with.

I don't ask for much from friendships: just some people that I can see every so often, share some good times with and, ideally, share in the experience of the hobbies that we have always found enjoyable together. A willing ear during turbulent times is helpful, but to be honest, it's the first bit that I most keenly feel the absence of in my life right now; I just want to be able to share the things I love — and that, in some cases, I am proud to have been part of — with people I care about. Some of my fondest memories from the years and decades gone by are not big, huge, exciting events, but times I spent at someone's house, just hanging out, possibly intoxicating ourselves via various means, playing video games and making stupid jokes together. These days I can live without the intoxication part, but the other bits I really miss.

Which is why I'm quietly excited about this little meet-up that is happening next week. It's just a couple of friends and, again, we're not doing anything big: just piling around someone's house, hanging out, playing some games and probably having a few drinks. It will be the first time I have done this with people I regard as "old friends" for quite a long time; my wife and I have been enjoying playing some HeroQuest with a mutual friend (someone she knew and introduced me to, who has now become a "shared friend", as it were), so it's not as if I've been completely without social contact, but that has been an occasional thing up until now. (That reminds me; I should probably arrange the next session of that.)

I don't know what the evening will hold. I'm hoping to introduce my friends to the stuff I've been doing with Evercade, firstly because it's stuff I'm super-proud to have worked on, but also (mainly) because there's a bunch of multiplayer stuff, particularly from among the NEOGEO cartridges, that I think it would be fun to spend some time with — and I get the chance so rarely to be able to actually play this stuff with other people that I'm really excited about the possibility. I can see Doom going down particularly well. The Instagib mode we added is insanely fun and the only chance I've had to play it was when we were testing it in the office!

But anyway. Spend some time with the people you have, in the past, called your "friends". Just drop them a text or something if you don't have the time to hang out. I can guarantee they'll appreciate it.

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#oneaday Day 882: The Maybe-Returner

I don't know if I'm going to go back to Final Fantasy XIV. I have had some wonderful times in that game — I proposed to my wife for real during our in-game wedding! — and every time I hear the soundtrack I feel an urge to reinstall and resub. But I don't know.

I have a few reasons for feeling a bit mixed on whether or not I want to go back. First and probably foremost is the fact that I'm very aware that, for several years, it completely dominated my gaming time. I don't resent the time I spent with wonderful people enjoying the game during that period — but I have always found it difficult to get that elusive "balance" between being able to enjoy a big, deep, time-consuming game like Final Fantasy XIV and still having a varied gaming diet elsewhere. There are a lot of games I still want to play, and I just worry that getting back into FFXIV — like really back into it — will mean I just never get to them.

The second is that I soured on the broader community as time went on. When I first started playing, the FFXIV community was one of the most friendly, welcoming, helpful communities I had ever played with, and this helped enormously with the sense of anxiety I felt over partying up with strangers for Dungeons and Trials. I even spent a bit of time as a tank class — in many ways the de facto "leader" of most groups, given that it is they who set the pace for everyone else — which is something I never thought I'd do.

Over time, though, things started to change. A lot of players started caring more about "efficiency" than enjoying the game. They'd speedrun through dungeons, pulling multiple groups of monsters at once and making the individual encounters considerably less interesting. They'd get pissy and abusive at anyone who wanted to enjoy the experience at a more leisurely pace. They ruined a potentially interesting mechanic called "The Hunt" by zergrushing every enemy that appeared as part of it with massive groups organised on Discord servers using bots. They made it nigh-essential to have spreadsheets and wikis open while you played certain parts of the game, rather than allowing you to enjoy it in a more freeform nature.

Granted, a lot of the game can now be enjoyed properly solo thanks to the Duty Support and Trust systems, but when you get to endgame, if you want to enjoy the raid storylines — which are often great! — you will still have to play with others. And, to a not-insignificant portion of the community, it seems there is only one way to play. The not-fun way.

The third is that prior to Dawntrail coming out, I ploughed through a New Game Plus run and straight into the expansions I hadn't yet done (Shadowbringers and Endwalker), burning myself out quite severely in the process. As part of this process, I started finding myself dreading the increasingly predictable structure of the game: go to new settlement, do story quest, suddenly sidequests pop up everywhere in the settlement. Do sidequests, advance main story a bit, suddenly a second set of sidequests pop up. Repeat until you get a bit of variation from a Dungeon or Trial. It got to a point where it just felt like exploring the world was becoming a bit of a chore, because there was no real danger from the enemies you'd encounter in the field, and nothing really to "find" other than the stuff you had marked on your map as quest objectives.

The third one is very much a "your mileage may vary" sort of scenario, I'm aware, and it may just have been that rushing through all those story quests made me cynical about the way the game is structured. It didn't prevent me from enjoying the game, and indeed the finale of Endwalker brought me to tears. I just didn't like feeling so cynical about a game that had been such an important part of my life for so long.

Thus, I'm rather torn about whether or not I'll go back for Evercold. Right now, I just don't really feel anything in the way of excitement for it, but at least part of that is down to simply not paying any attention to anything Final Fantasy XIV-related since the base story of Dawntrail. The rest is down to enjoying the varied gaming experiences I'm having away from FFXIV right now, and not wanting to end up back in a position where my own lack of self-control makes it difficult to still have those while playing FFXIV.

I'm probably overthinking it. I overthink a lot of things. I know I would go back in a heartbeat if I was able to help friends who had never played it before do a "story run" through the various main scenarios. But going back "just for me"? I'm not sure I have it in me.

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#oneaday Day 881: It is 2026 and I'm playing Ocarina of Time, Doom and Final Fantasy

It is very easy to shake your head at Modern Gaming™ and despair, but at the same time, great things are happening — even at the big-budget, top-tier end of things. They are especially great if you are a Gamer of a Certain Age.

For me, some of my fondest gaming memories hail from the mid to late 1990s. Wolfenstein, Doom and Quake are defining gaming experiences for me. Final Fantasy VII shaped my primary gaming tastes. And, of course, The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time was a wonderful shared experience for all of us who owned Nintendo 64s at the time it came out. Which was, basically, everyone in my entire friendship group.

Now, nearly 30 years later, it's kind of amazing to think that I am still here, still playing games… and still playing The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time, Doom and Final Fantasy — albeit not in their original forms. I'm playing the Nintendo Switch 2 version of Ocarina of Time, which is beyond beautiful; I'm playing Doom on a console I helped bring to market, in a release that I wrote the documentation for; I'm playing Final Fantasy in the form of Final Fantasy Resonance, a game which is both an excellent Final Fantasy in the old-school mould, and a wonderful homage to Final Fantasy history in its own right.

It's kind of funny in a way. I often think about games that have come out in the last… 15-20 years, say, and wonder if any of them will ever have the same kind of cultural penetration of things like Pac-Man and Space Invaders. Games that, while you might not necessarily want to play them all the time, can be universally agreed upon to be both important and good. The games I've previously mentioned all fall into this category, too; Doom has endured for so long for very good reason, and has seen numerous rereleases over the years; Ocarina of Time is actually on its second remake and third rerelease after the Gamecube port and the 3DS remake; and Final Fantasy is a series that has very much moved with the times — not always in a way that everyone likes, but one cannot deny that it has always done its very best to stay up to date.

I look at something like Horizon: Zero Dawn — which, admittedly, is a game I didn't like very much — and wonder if people are still going to be talking about that in 20 years in the same way that the aforementioned titles are held in complete and utter reverence by both players and game makers. What about Gears of War? Halo? Gears is apparently having a bit of a comeback, but Halo has been absent from many people's lives for so long at this point that it has almost become irrelevant.

I wonder how much of it is down to a sense of universal appeal versus things that are ostensibly aimed at "adults". Of the titles I referenced above, only really Doom can, perhaps, be argued to be aimed vaguely in the direction of adults — and even then, not really. Doom is, at heart, a teenage, heavy metal, power fantasy. Even back on its original release, its violence was almost cartoonish, despite being relatively bloody; its "scary" elements tempered somewhat by a driving soundtrack and a relentless pace. People remember Doom and Doom II a lot more fondly than Doom III because Doom III tried to go all-in on the "this is a scary game for adults" thing, and while it was good — it really was! — you just… don't hear people talk about it any more.

And that's where I kind of fall with a lot of the modern games that seem to be a big hit one minute, then almost completely forgotten about the next. Sure, having a middle-aged protagonist who is sad and says "fuck" a lot is very much a sign of the times… but it doesn't have that same timeless appeal that things like Ocarina of Time and Final Fantasy do.

As someone interested in gaming history, I feel like it's going to be very interesting looking back on the last 15-20 years or so in retrospect. It's already interesting to look back on the Xbox 360/PS3 era, because there's a whole ton of stuff that completely flew under the radar on those consoles. That's a different thing from having timeless appeal, of course, but it can sometimes throw up some thoroughly interesting experiences.

That's probably a tale for another day, though. For now, I'll just say that the couple of hours of Ocarina of Time I've played this evening are absolutely marvellous, and I'm delighted that this remake has come out as well as it has. It strikes that perfect balance I was talking about the other day, where it is simultaneously respectful to its source material, and simply a great new game in its own right, for those who have never played it before.

I would play some more but I smell real bad so I better go have a bath.

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#oneaday Day 880: Remakes and originals can and should coexist

Earlier today, the one and only Jeff Grubb of Giant Bomb posed the question "what game remakes have effectively replaced the original?" It's an interesting question, so I thought I'd take today to ponder it myself in a bit more detail than my skeet in reply to him.

Remakes are on everyone's mind right now because the Switch 2 remake of The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time is out tomorrow, and the reviews have been glowing. To most reviewers, it appears that nu-Ocarina is a respectful remake that simultaneously pays homage to the original and provide a solid, self-contained experience in its own right, accessible to newcomers as much as it is to series veterans — or, indeed, old farts like me who were There For It First Time Around.

My simple response to Jeff was that a good remake doesn't replace the original; it complements it. What happens next is down to the individual, with the remake pointedly not saying one way or the other is the definitive approach.

Someone who plays a remake could find themselves interested in the history of what they just played; having learned it is a remake of an earlier game, they could find themselves drawn down a rabbit-hole of investigating games from a different time — and, in the case of younger players, games that may well have been released before they were even born. This could, in turn, develop an interest in broader gaming history and retro gaming as a hobby — something which I, of course, would heartily encourage.

At the same time, someone who plays a remake could find themselves completely satisfied with the self-contained experience that the remake provides. They know it's a remake of an older thing, but they also know that it stands by itself and doesn't require or assume knowledge of said older thing. They can enjoy a brand-new, modern game that is informed by classic titles of the past, but not have to deal with all the challenges that looking into old games can present you with — whether that's dated visuals, lower quality sound, less refined controls and game design. These are not things that bother me personally, but I can imagine that someone who grew up with, say, the PlayStation 4 and Switch as their first gaming consoles might find it hard to go back to games from the original PlayStation and N64, for various reasons.

Then, of course, there are situations like the Final Fantasy VII Remake trilogy, where what they're doing is not really a "remake" at all, but rather a considerably expanded retelling of a story that goes off in some interesting other directions. These can still be responded to in both of the above ways, however; some folks who came to Final Fantasy VII Remake first might find themselves curious to play the original Final Fantasy VII, while others will be happy with the modern games as their sole point of contact.

Of course, I would absolutely love it if all people were willing to dive back into gaming history and give older games the time of day. There's still a ton of value to be found in older games — even in ones that, for example, use control schemes that have long since been abandoned in favour of modern analogue controls.

Take the original Tomb Raider, for example. This is a game designed entirely around its rather rigid, clunky-by-modern-standards controls. It is a product of its time and represents a style of gameplay that we don't really have in the same form any more — but it's still perfectly playable if you meet it on its own terms and learn how to play it. At the same time, I understand completely why the more recent Tomb Raider games have gone in a more "modern third-person shooter" kind of angle. But one absolutely does not negate the other, at all.

I know not everyone is a fan of them, but I like remakes. They provide a new way to experience an old thing — and, if you were around for the old thing's original appearance, might just remind you why you used to like it so much. And, at the same time, they make the old thing much more accessible to newer or younger players. What happens from there is really up to them — but I hope it's the beginning of an enriching, fascinating journey of discovery.

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