I've had a productive weekend! I've recorded and edited two Atari A to Z videos, two Atari ST A to Z videos, two Atari A to Z Flashback videos, two episodes of Final Fantasy Marathon and two episodes of the new short;Play series. Well, okay, as I type this I have the last Final Fantasy Marathon video to finish off (it's currently matching audio to video, so rather than sit around waiting for it I thought I'd write this instead) but I'm nearly done!

It feels good to get stuff done. Or at least it does when the stuff you get done is the stuff you want to get done. Compare to the busywork of your average day job (not just mine) which tends to hold little in the way of personal satisfaction unless you've been very lucky enough to land in a vocation that matches your interests… and, yeah.

I guess the key is trying to get yourself in the mindset of feeling that sort of satisfaction from your daily tasks and the things you don't really want to do. Some form of positive reinforcement is probably key there; "if I finish [x] I'll reward myself with [y]". This is, of course, a remarkably simplistic way of looking at this sort of thing, but it turns out that in a lot of cases we human beings are remarkably simplistic creatures of habit, and sometimes all it takes to motivate you a bit is the knowledge that a packet of Wine Gums or a bit of time to [censored] is waiting for you. Maybe. Possibly.

I do know that I already don't feel like getting up tomorrow morning. But at least it's only one day of work, then two days completely to myself (at home, obviously) to enjoy my birthday celebrations (by myself… well, with my wife and cats, obviously) and whatever the hell I want to do for those 48 hours.

But ah well. Right now it is Sunday night (well, early Monday morning) and I should probably get to sleep. After this video's done…

Recorded a bunch of videos today, including some first attempts at the new idea I talked about the other day. I've gone with "short;Play" for the title because it sums up what the series is all about, plus the gratuitous misuse of a semicolon pays tribute to all the games and visual novels I've played over the years that have done similarly.

The first two episodes of short;Play will be on Snack World: The Dungeon Crawl Gold and Cyber Protocol. I've got those pencilled in for the Wednesday slot; if I have time to record and edit, I'd like to start doing article "readings" on Mondays too, but that will depend on me being organised

I have two Final Fantasy episodes to record tomorrow so I'll see how I'm doing after they're done.

Exciting times! Feeling quite inspired at present, which is just as well, because I have plenty of time on my hands right now!

One of the best things I did for MoeGamer was take some time to hang out with other WordPress bloggers, read their stuff and leave some comments. I've made some good friends in this way and had a lot of fun… and I'm sure it's helped MoeGamer, too.

I'm pretty sure I need to start doing the same on YouTube if I want to grow by more than a trickle. Trouble is, making some time to engage with the YouTube community is even more time-consuming than making sure to read people's blogs — I read pretty quick, whereas a video's a video — so I often find myself struggling to get started, or, more commonly, going back to old favourites who are, at this point, much too big to pay any attention to any comments I might leave.

There are exceptions of course; I know one such example is reading this right now, and I'm grateful for your support! I think probably the best approach is to set aside a specific bit of time each day, watch maybe one or two videos and make a point of leaving a comment on them. If I can get into the habit of doing that — as I have done with the WordPress Reader — then that will probably be a good thing!

Well, maybe. Worth a try, anyway, and it'd be nice to "meet" some new people in the midst of all the worldly chaos right now, too!

If you have any fun, decent, small-scale YouTube channels you think I should make an effort to reach out to — people who enjoy conversations in their comments — then do please feel free to let me know. They can be retro or modern; the majority of my channel is retro right now, but I have some plans in motion for a little more modern stuff that I'm going to start experimenting with this very weekend!

I got a couple of days off next week — my day job gives me an extra day's holiday each year for both my work anniversary and my birthday, and conveniently those both fall in April, so I tend to take them together.

You might wonder if there's any point taking holiday in the middle of a worldwide pandemic that has us all shut in our homes, but to that I say absolutely and emphatically yes. While I don't have a problem with the "being shut in at home" part, I am very much starting to feel a strong sense of existential despair at the complete and utter pointlessness of my day job. It pays the bills and is easy, but that's sort of the problem — it's also boring, tedious and frustrating. It doesn't challenge me. And when my brain starts feeling that way about something, it kind of doesn't even want to bother starting things that are going to be annoying to do.

Don't get me wrong, I get what I have to do done, always, but mustering up the motivation to even care a little bit right now is just not something that's happening. So I'm counting on the couple of completely free days next week to relax, get my mind back in order and try to settle back in to the situation — this whole business is going to be lasting a while, after all, so I should probably try and approach things a little more positively.

On the plus side of all this, I have plenty of time to work on MoeGamer and other bits and pieces during the day, so it's not a complete loss! Going back to the office when all this is over is probably going to be a challenge…

I've been playing a bunch more Snack World: The Dungeon Crawl Gold and while I'm not quite ready to talk about it on MoeGamer — I want to try and get to whatever the "endgame" is before I do that — I do want to spend a bit of time enthusing about it here!

My initial assessment of the game as a Diablo clone wasn't quite on the money; while its randomly generated dungeons and loot-grabbing certainly conjures up visions of Blizzard's classic series, there's also a strong amount of Monster Hunter in there, too — or, at least, having never played one, what I understand Monster Hunter to be all about.

This means that a lot of the loot you find is not necessarily equipment with increasingly large numbers in various categories, but instead various bits of crap that can subsequently be cobbled together into all manner of different things — usually armour and "style gear" (equippable items that affect your appearance rather than your stats) — or used to upgrade the "jaras" (weapons, shields and "rechargeable consumables") that you gradually acquire over time.

The interesting thing about Snack World's crafting and upgrading is that it isn't just about making things more powerful. Arguably more important is making the items more flexible; upgrading an item generally unlocks a new colour scheme for it, and colour is one of the several ways you can meet the "daily trends" along with brand and overall style. Wearing an ensemble that meets the daily trend means you're much more likely to find rare item drops, and also defeating an enemy with a weapon that is the same colour as them will also increase the item drop rate.

Weapons also have "banes", which means they're strong against specific types or colours of enemies, and the game mercifully minimises micromanaging this side of things by having both a helpful "auto-equip" option based on the enemies you will encounter in any given quest, and an even more helpful "quick weapon switch" button in combat, automatically giving you the optimal tool for dispatching the foe you're currently locked on to. There's a lot of helpful visual feedback, too; when switching to a particular weapon, any enemies on screen that have a weakness to that weapon will react through a speech bubble ranging from "huh?" (mild weakness) to "OH NO!!!" (extreme vulnerability), allowing you to see at a glance which targets to prioritise.

I'm having a ton of fun so far, and a brief stint in multiplayer the other night was really enjoyable. If anyone else other than my podcasting partner in crime Chris happens to be playing this underappreciated little gem, be sure to let us know and we can crawl some dungeons together sometime!

How you all holding up? I've been feeling a bit bleak today. Not really because of the whole quarantine situation — though the way I felt did mean that I had no desire whatsoever to leave the house and go to the shop for a few bits and pieces — but just… generally, really.

Now and then, I get reminded of the fact that I'm no longer surrounded by a lot of people that I thought were lifelong, always-supportive friends. Today was one of those days; there wasn't really any specific trigger as such, but I just happened to see some conversations online between some people I used to count among my circle of friends, and I missed certain aspects of times gone by.

A significant number of people pretty much ghosted me when I was laid off from USgamer. No-one said why; no-one attempted to bring up anything I might have done wrong; I was just suddenly "excommunicated". And the people in question weren't even necessarily part of the games press, either; there were folks I used to chat to online every single day who suddenly went radio silent.

Part of this is doubtless down to political differences. Many of the people who stopped talking to me, I've discovered, are now leaning pretty hard on the "overzealous leftie" side of things, seemingly preferring to talk about politics of various types more than pretty much anything else. Meanwhile, I was sick of politics talk more than half a decade ago — particularly surrounding gaming culture — and made no secret of that fact.

The stupid thing, though, is that despite not wanting to spend my days cancelling people on Twitter for wrongthink, I too am pretty left-leaning, judging by every political compass test I've ever taken. I mean, I'm almost totally apathetic towards politics, but the few things I do feel strongly enough to have an opinion on put me firmly on the left. And yet… what? I don't know.

I think that's the most frustrating thing. When friendships fizzle out seemingly overnight and you don't know the reason for it — and no reason is forthcoming — it's kind of depressing. It's been over five years at this point, though; I should probably learn to let go, as much as I do honestly believe a lot of these people — at least, the versions of these people I knew five or more years ago — would very much enjoy what I'm doing now with both MoeGamer and YouTube.

And thankfully, even as I've lost people, I've made many new friends, some of whom have been through the exact same experience as what I've just described. So they know, all too well, and in many ways some of those new friends have been more supportive and helpful to me than they might be aware of.

If you're reading this, you're almost certainly one of them, so thanks for being there. And if you need anyone to listen to you during these strange times, know that I'm here, too; I can't promise good advice, but I can promise a receptive set of ears and eyes.

I've been kicking around an idea for a new video series, and I was hoping I could get some input from you lovely people on what to call it.

Essentially, it would be a similar format to Atari A to Z, but for more recent/current games. It would consist of a bit of opening background to the game in question, where there is stuff to say, followed by a 20-30 minute "guided tour" of a typical play session, highlighting how the game plays and some interesting things about it.

It wouldn't be a pre-scripted video but it wouldn't quite be a Let's Play either, in that it won't be an ongoing walkthrough of the whole game; rather, it would be a slice of the game that would allow people to decide if it looks like something that might appeal to them. I'm not planning on making it a definitive "review" or anything like that, because 1) I tend not to do that anyway and 2) different people have different tastes; rather I want to provide a quick tour of what you can expect from the game, from the perspective of someone who has spent some time with it (but not necessarily beaten it).

I don't know what to call this series. I want to give the series as a whole some sort of distinctive title so it can tie all the episodes together. I don't want to call it "Quick Look" because people will assume that's ripping off Giant Bomb, and likewise I don't want to go with "WTF Is…" or anything too similar, because that was TotalBiscuit's thing, may he rest in peace.

Something along those lines would probably work, though. I'm just coming up short on title ideas right now. Once I figure out a name for the series — perhaps with your help! — I'll probably try and pop this series in the weekly Wednesday slot formerly occupied by Warriors Wednesday.

So fire away! No idea is too stupid at this point. Think about something you'd be happy sharing with friends; "oh, have you seen the episode of [title] by Pete Davison, he talks all about that game".

I await an empty comments section with eager enthusiasm! 🙂

I've been pleased to see ProJared very much getting back into the swing of things of late; he's been gradually starting to do more and more things ever since he put all the drama over him to bed last year, but it's mostly been Twitch streams; I'm not a huge fan of Twitch generally because I'm never around at the time the people I might want to watch are streaming, and I find stream archives to be full of obtrusive shout-outs, thank-yous and stuff like that.

Just recently, he's been starting to do traditional Let's Plays again, and I'm really happy about that. He's basically starting over from scratch, though, as he doesn't have an editor or indeed anyone working for him any more after the whole debacle — and fair play to him, he's doing his best to take it all on himself rather than relying on anyone else while he continues to "rebuild". Of course, there's no longer the magical text-based banter from "Miss Editor", but I'm sure once he feels comfortable with what he's doing there'll be some fun stuff in there — and in the meantime, of course, it's nice to just be able to enjoy some games with him again.

Why do I care? Well, mostly because ProJared is probably the reason I actually got into watching Let's Plays in the first place. I came to him via a rather convoluted route that started with Classic Gaming Quarterly, came via LGR and a few other people, and I eventually landed on his main channel. I decided to watch a few videos on his gameplay channel — and I found myself enjoying them a lot, particularly during quiet periods at the day job.

In fact, I found myself enjoying them so much that I decided I wanted to start trying to do them myself. ProJared's older work is a huge inspiration on what I've been doing with YouTube for the last couple of years; I found myself very much enjoying his chilled out, honest, open and conversational style — it was certainly a far cry from the stereotypical screaming Let's Players I'd had in mind before I started exploring YouTube in detail a while back.

Even in the midst of the nonsense that went on with him, I respected his work and how much it had inspired me, so I've always striven to adopt a similar — though not identical — style to what I do with my Let's Play-style stuff on YouTube. It does my heart good to see him back doing this sort of thing again, and I hope he's finally been able to leave all the unpleasantness behind him.

The hate mobs of the Internet are a scourge of the modern age. I sincerely hope no-one close to me ever has to suffer such abuse.

I'm playing a fair bit of Snack World: The Dungeon Crawl Gold when I'm not knee-deep in Atelier Iris 3 — it's a lovely palate-cleanser, and when I've spent some more time with it I'll write about it in more detail on MoeGamer for sure.

One thing that's come to mind though is how I have somewhat mixed feelings about multiplayer components. On the one hand, I love the idea of all the "community" stuff in Snack World: it has a lot in common with stuff like Animal Crossing in terms of customisation, chat and all that fun stuff, plus the ability to do quick chat and emotes without having to type things in.

On the other, it's a game that I feel is probably best experienced with friends, and a brief look at the online the other day didn't fill me with confidence that there would even be anyone to play with without making a specific date to get together and do something. That may just be the time I played; I haven't tried again since.

Thankfully, Snack World is plenty substantial in the single-player department, so if you never touch multiplayer you're not missing out on a huge amount — but there are still aspects you'll never see, such as the "Traveler" feature, where characters you've previously played with occasionally show up in your town and can even be hired as AI-controlled party members.

I'll have to look into whether or not there are any communities still going for this game; it'd be nice to enjoy it to the fullest, because it's a really fun game. At the very least, all being well, my podcasting partner in crime Chris and I will hopefully be giving it a go tomorrow evening, so we'll both at least get to try it!

The last of my grandparents — my father's mother, or "Nan D" as we tended to know her — passed away this evening. It sounds as if it was at least partly expected, though perhaps not quite so soon. We don't know the details as yet, but apparently she hadn't quite been herself for a little while, so it sounds like it probably wasn't related to the pandemic situation.

I'm not sure how to feel about it, really. A family member passing is always a sad event, to be sure, but I'd not had many opportunities to see her for quite a long time now. I guess in some regards this is a good thing, because it allows me to look back on my fond memories with her — mostly the time when she was living in her old house, next door but one to my mother's parents — rather than anything more negative or sad, but even so; with the world being the way it is right now we unfortunately can't really give her a proper send-off and say goodbye.

Well, I guess we can, really. I'm doing it right now. That's one of the nice things about the modern age; you can share the things you want to say — or indeed the fact that you're not quite sure what to say, as I'm feeling right now — regardless of the distance between you and the people you're sharing your thoughts with.

Goodbye, Nan. I think that's all I really want to say right at this exact moment. Rest well; you deserve the peace, and you will be missed.