Ever get the feeling you "should" be doing something in particular, but you can't quite pin down what it is? It's frustrating — particularly when that feeling comes up during what should be your "own" time, the time where you do things that you want to do rather than things that you have to do.
I'm not quite sure if saying I feel like I "should" be doing something is right, even; it's just a vaguely defined sense of dissatisfaction with all the things I've considered settling down to do this evening. One might think that the ideal solution in this situation would be to do something completely different altogether — but then that leads to the problem where the "new thing" you've added to your repertoire becomes one of the many things you think you "should" be doing when you pick something else.
This is vague waffle, I know, but it's (almost certainly) a symptom of anxiety. Rationally speaking, there is absolutely nothing I need to do right at this second. I could play something that I can write about tomorrow, but I don't need to. I could make some sort of video to get ahead of schedule on my own personal projects, but I don't need to. I could go and… you get the idea.
I think part of it relates to the fact that I know there are some exciting things happening a little down the road — with one of the main ones being the launch of the Evercade VS — that I'm feeling a bit impatient to get started with. But then that shouldn't stop me from doing things I actually want to do, like playing Atelier, or playing shoot 'em ups, or doing unrelated creative things, or reading something, or any of the myriad other things I could be doing right now.
Instead, I find myself staring into space thinking about how much fun I could be having if I just picked one of the options in my head. I should probably just actually pick one and go enjoy it for the rest of the evening, huh? So let's do that.
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