I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety today. It's probably a lot of things all piling up and exploding like fireworks in my brain, but it's made for quite an unpleasant day living inside my own brain. It doesn't help that it's annual appraisal time at the day job, too, which always riddles me with impostor syndrome by the bucketload. Still, although I'm bored a lot, I'm not doing a bad job (I don't think, anyway!) so there shouldn't be anything to complain about. Doesn't stop me worrying though.
These feelings are why I make a point of working on MoeGamer and my videos every day. Those are things that, when I work on them, I feel both satisfied and confident. They are mine, they're not answering to anyone else — and despite that, there are people enjoying them. Such as you, you lovely person, you.
It's important to have something like that in your life, I think. Going through your day perpetually anxious about never being good enough or never doing enough is no way to live. It's good to push yourself and ask yourself if you can do better, of course, but getting yourself into a mindset where you never feel like you're good enough doesn't help.
I'm saying this as much to myself as to anyone else right now. I'm feeling anxious and stressed, and I would like it to go away now please. Hopefully a good sleep will help!
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