When you're having a bit of a low ebb, as I am at present, it's good to have something you can hold on to and enjoy, even in your darkest moments. Something that reminds you that things are okay, and that not everything is bleak and terrible.
What I'd consider to be my three main hobbies — video games, writing and music — have always been that to me. The latter two have always provided me with a good "outlet" to express myself in various ways, even during times where I can't quite vocalise exactly what it is that I want to say or get across to other people… and the former, well, it's simply always entertained me, always provided me with an "escape", always given me something to focus on when the alternative is dwelling on negative thoughts that have no real rhyme, reason or even cause to them.
This evening, despite having had one of of my worst weeks for depression and anxiety for a long time, I find myself sitting here in absolute wonder at the breadth of experiences it's possible to have in gaming — and that I've been quite happily enjoying week after week for quite some time now.
This evening I played some Ace Combat 7 in VR — more on that on MoeGamer tomorrow, because I have a lot to say about it — and earlier, I played some Atari Flashback Classics, wrote about Atelier Meruru and published a video on Rick Dangerous. Every one a completely different experience; every one something that I value greatly, especially during times like this. (Yes, even Rick Dangerous, with its dickish level design.)
I have a ton of great games on my shelves. I've written about a wide variety of fantastic games on MoeGamer and made videos about them on YouTube. There are a number of new releases coming up that I'm extremely excited about, as well as stuff I've owned for ages that I'm finally going to get around to writing about this year.
A while back, when I wrote about how video games probably saved my life on more than one occasion, I wasn't joking. Even when my brain is utterly convinced that times are rubbish, as it has been for the last week or so, there's always a new world I can escape into, where I can achieve great things, where I can be the hero, where I can be someone I'm not, where I'm far away from things that I worry about that I don't need to worry about.
Well, that's how my evening has been. Now I'm going to bed. Good night!
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