#oneaday Day 657: Wasteland Diaries, Part 5

After walking down the street a short distance, I came to a small open area that looked like it was once a petrol station. A couple of burnt out cars were scattered haphazardly at the front, and the huge metal canopy that covered over the pumps had collapsed at one end, forming a huge ramp-like structure, a leap to nowhere. What had once been the kiosk looked mostly intact — relatively speaking, anyway. Its windows were shattered and the door was occasionally bumping open and shut, but the building looked otherwise structurally sound.

I headed for the small building and carefully opened the door. Not carefully enough, though, it seemed, since as I pulled it it fell off its hinges and crashed to the ground with a loud thump. I started at the sound and once again instinctively looked around to see if anyone had noticed — and once again there was no-one.

Inside the small kiosk it was dark. The angle of the building meant that not much sunlight got in through the smashed windows, and the electricity here was clearly dead. Products that had once been neatly stacked on the shelves now lay scattered on the floor. There was an acrid stench in the air, but I figured this would be as good a place as any to gather some supplies.

A collapsed pile of large, flat books caught my eye. "Road Atlas, United Kingdom and Ireland," the faded cover proclaimed. While the book was battered, stained and slightly charred, the contents of the pages were still clearly visible. This could be a huge help, I thought. If I can pinpoint my own location, I can figure out where to go next and maybe even track down Evie.

It was an optimistic view of the future, I knew that. As far as I was concerned, though, optimism was the only way to go. Curling up in a corner and crying would achieve nothing — it wouldn't even get me any sympathy, since there was no-one else around to give it. Occasionally as I walked and my mind wandered, I wanted to stop and grieve for what had been lost — even though I still wasn't sure exactly what I had lost — but I worried if I started, I might never stop.

The book of maps was too big to fit in my pack normally. I folded it in half with some difficulty and stuffed it in there among the tins and other supplies I'd scavenged from the shop or storage house the previous day. It wouldn't be much use until I found something that offered a hint to my current location, anyway.

I stepped back out into the sunlight of the day. I was getting thirsty, but I really didn't want to risk any of the sealed bottles that I'd seen in the petrol station. Who knew what was in them, how long they'd been there and what state their contents were in? I certainly didn't, so I didn't take the chance.

A searing pain shot through my skull. It drove me straight to my knees and I screamed as the horrifying sensation ploughed its way through my brain. I didn't know what it was or if anyone was doing it to me, but it hurt so much. I clasped my hands to the side of my head and leaned forward on the floor, but the pain didn't subside. My vision blurred and faded, and I passed out.

My unconsciousness was troubled by restless dreams. I was angry, furious, a force of pure wrath. I roared with frustration and the very earth trembled at the sound of my voice. Clouds of dust rose up with every step I took, and solid structures crumbled at my touch. I knew nothing but the desire to destroy, to crush, to shatter. I would not rest until all lay in ruins.

When I awoke, I could feel myself sweating, though the air had become cold. I opened my eyes and could tell that a considerable amount of time had passed — the light had faded and the atmosphere was very different. I couldn't tell exactly what was different until I got to my hands and knees and raised my head, however, and what I saw chilled me to the bone.

Where once had been half-wrecked buildings, still recognisable as the signs of recent civilisation, now was simply total devastation. Buildings were flattened, flakes of walls scattered all around as if they had simply burst. The petrol station I had just come from was nowhere to be seen, though there was a pile of rubble with a thick plume of black smoke emanating from it where it had been standing what felt like just moments ago.

All around was chaos, destruction — the end of the world, come again. I stood, mouth agape, looking around, the shock of the sudden devastation rendering me incapable of rational thought.

Suddenly, the thought of the dream I had had came back to me. There was so much rage, anger, fury. The feeling that I would never be satisfied until all lay in ruins.

I couldn't have done this, could I? And if I had done this, then what if I–

This time it really was all too much. I sank back to the floor and sobbed — huge, gulping, gasps of air. I felt like I couldn't breathe, such was the feeling of anguish that gripped me. The tears ran freely, and I wailed at the wave of emotion washing over me.

The world as it once had been was no more, and I was absolutely alone. Was there any point going on? Would I ever find Evie? More to the point, would I ever find any answers?

Adam, came the voice in my head. I need you. And you need me. Come to me.

I wanted to. But I didn't know how.

#oneaday Day 656: Wasteland Diaries, Part 4

It was time to get moving. I tucked the diary into a jacket pocket and resolved to read a little more the next time I stopped.

Stopped where? Get going where?

I paused for a moment, this obvious question pushing its way to the forefront of my mind. I knew that this "Evie" woman was important for some reason, and that I should find her. But how would I go about doing that, given that I had no idea where I was and no idea where she was, either?

I scratched my nose — some skin was flaking off it in the dry heat — and pondered this for a moment. Then my mind returned to the phone that I had pocketed. Perhaps something in there would offer some sort of clue? I switched it on again. The screen took a moment to respond, then lit up with what I assumed was the manufacturer's logo, as it was also present on the rear of the device. I waited for what seemed like an age for the phone to start up, and was then presented with a screen of icons.

I touched the "Mail" icon and looked over the messages I'd previously read again. I returned to the message to "Annie" from "Evie" and, curious, tapped on the name "Evelyn Anderton" at the top of the message. The message scrolled to one side, and I was conveniently presented with what looked like Evie's contact details. There was a phone number and an email address — not that those would be much good given that the phone clearly had no signal — and a listing of her birthday: January 1, 1981. A New Year child. No address though. Of course it wasn't that simple.

I frowned. Perhaps there was somewhere else I could find the information. I returned to the phone's inbox and scrolled back another level. The previous owner of the phone had kept her messages organised well, it seemed, and it wasn't long before I found the "Evie" folder, apparently containing the two women's past correspondence.

I didn't have time to read all the messages, so I skimmed over the subject headings, back through several months until a date some time in the previous year — 2013. Around that point, one message immediately jumped out at me as important: "New Address." I tapped on it to open it up and, sure enough, there was a brief note with Evie informing Annie of her new home.

The trouble was, I had absolutely no idea where this place was, or even if it was in the same country as I was in. I assumed it was, since Evie hadn't seen fit to add a country name after the postcode, but that may well have been a foolish assumption. I wasn't to know.

Equipped with a new lead, I turned the phone off again, headed back downstairs and out into the heat of the day. The sun was beating down on the street by now, and the air felt dry.

Something flashed across my mind's eye — a fleeting vision. A memory? I wasn't sure, because as quickly as it had flown across my imagination, it was gone again, out of reach, impossible to grasp. I had a sense of the colour green, and of a warm. dry day much like this one, but little else.

I shook my head. It wouldn't do to go cracking up now. Or would it? There was no-one else around, and the closest I'd come to another human being had inexplicably crumbled to dust at my touch. As I started walking along the street, I looked at my hands. They looked normal and hand-like, not like any kind of destructive force. So why had the woman's body fallen apart like it had done?

Answers weren't forthcoming. All I could do for now was to keep walking forwards until I found something that would help me in my new-found mission: to find Evie.

I didn't know why she was important, but something in the tone of her messages had convinced me that she had an idea of what was going on — and not just in the sense of what people knew through hearsay. But there was something else, too. Something at the back of my mind, out of reach, like the fleeting memory that had just passed me by. A sense, a knowledge, a feeling — Evie was important.

Given the lack of anything else to go on, I had little choice other than to trust my instincts.

I walked along the street for some time. As I continued, the size of the destroyed buildings seemed to be decreasing. Perhaps I was coming to the edge of this town. The devastation wasn't any less, but it was a different kind of devastation — these buildings looked more like small houses rather than the larger blocks I'd previously been seeing. Some had small patches of grass, yellowed in the heat, out front, and some had rusted, battered, ruined old cars. Few of the buildings looked safe, so I didn't risk heading inside.

The street was still eerily quiet. I felt a slight breeze and heard it blowing past my ears, but no other sounds — no animals, no birds, not even the sound of rubbish clattering around in the road. The sense of loneliness was palpable, like I was living in some sort of parallel existence to the rest of the world, and all I had to do was to tear down the wall of reality separating me from the people I knew and loved — whoever they were.

I knew that couldn't be the case, though. My memory may have failed me, but my sense of rational thought had not. My thoughts turned to the only possible explanation — that something terrible had happened, and that I was the only survivor.

But why me? What was so special about me? Why should I survive when everyone else disappears, or turns to dust?

It was a question that would not get an answer for some time.

#oneaday Day 655: Wasteland Diaries, Part 3

The device gave a soft "click" as I slid my finger across its smooth screen. I wasn't sure how it could possibly still be working, given the devastation surrounding it, but there must have still been some power coming from that socket.

I didn't think on it further at that point; what was more important was the fact that this small device might offer some clues as to what happened, where I was and — unlikely as it might be to think — who I was.

The display blackened for a split-second then opened to presumably whatever the last holder of this phone had been doing. It looked like they'd been reading an email. Although my memories of the events leading up to this devastation — not to mention who I was — remained obscured, either the inferface was intuitive enough or I simply had a natural understanding of the technology to be able to scroll through the message and see what it had to say.

The message had been sent by an "Evelyn Anderton" to someone called "Annabelle Anderton" — the owner of the phone, presumably. I assumed the two were related, as the tone of the message was somewhat familiar in tone.

"Annie," the message read. "I know you're scared, and I wish I could be there with you. I wish I could tell you it's all going to be all right. But I'm not sure it is. I'm sorry to not be more positive with you, but with things being how the are I think the sooner we all face reality, the better. I wish I could see you one last time, but I don't think that can ever happen, Annie. I love you. Stay strong. Evie x"

I scrolled back through the message thread to see if I could glean anything from the conversation between the two women — sisters? — but they didn't mention anything specific. Of course they wouldn't have — everyone would have known what was going on, from the sound of things, so people probably didn't want reminding of what appeared to be something both disastrous and inevitable coming, creeping up on them like the end of the world.

No, not like the end of the world — it pretty much looked like it was the end of the world.

I touched the button in the corner of the screen to go back to the inbox. There were only two other messages in there — one looked like a junk promotional message for some place that sold entertainment products, and the other was short, to the point and all in capitals. It was dated after the conversation between "Evie" and "Annie" by two weeks — October 31, 2014.

"ALPHA AND OMEGA WILL UNITE," it said. There was no sender listed.

I frowned, curious as to what the strange message meant, but decided that there wouldn't be any easy answers forthcoming while I stayed here. A popup message filled the screen informing me that the server wasn't responding and the phone couldn't get new mail. I wasn't surprised — I would have been more surprised if the phone had been fully functional than I already was that it had power.

I glanced into the corner of the screen. The battery indicator read 86%. It was falling fast — I decided I should stop fiddling around with the device until I had a good reason to, and switched it off. I also pulled the white cable out of the wall and tucked it into my pocket — if this building still had some power, then chances are some other places might, too.

I looked around the rest of the room in an attempt to glean any further clues. Through the gloom, I saw that there was a desk with three drawers at one side of the bedroom, with what looked like a computer standing on it. The screen was broken, though, so I didn't hold up much hope for making use of it. A foul smell was emanating from the corner of the room and I could see that an old cup sitting atop the surface was the source. The cup had obviously once been filled with a drink which had long since turned to mould, and up close it stank so rotten that I involuntarily retched.

I picked up the cup and flung it out of the window. I heard it clatter to the street below, and then all was silent outside once more. For a moment, I had hoped that the noise would attract the attention of another person — someone who would prove that I was not alone in this world of bodies which turned to dust — but it was not to be.

I opened the first of the three drawers. Inside were a few battered-looking pens and pencils, but nothing much of note.

The next drawer down was empty save for a spindle containing what looked like optical discs of some description — CDs or DVDs. They wouldn't be much use with the computer out of action, so I left them where they were.

In the bottom drawer, I found a small black hardback book. The cover was unmarked, so I opened it up to a random page, which was blank except for a few ruled lines. I flipped backwards to the start of the book, which was less empty than the page I'd opened it up to. In fact, it was crammed with handwriting — neat and elegant, but with a few rough edges, as if the person writing normally had fine writing but was in a hurry or was under a lot of stress at the time.

I began to read.

"November 1, 2014," began the first entry. It was a diary. "The phone lines have gone down. I feel so cut off from everything. I'm scared. I don't know what to expect. I don't know what the future holds. Evie said I wouldn't see her again, and that made me cry, even though I already knew that her mission would send her far afield. I don't even know why I'm writing this — if it all happens like they say they will there'll be no-one left to read this. But no-one will listen if I talk — everyone is too wrapped up in their own little worlds to care about others. They say that a crisis brings people together, but it hasn't — it's driven them apart, every man for himself. I miss you, Evie. I hope you find what you're looking for."

I paused for a moment. This "Evie" was sounding more and more important with everything I read relating to her. I knew what I had to do.

#oneaday Day 654: Wasteland Diaries, Part 2

I'm not sure how long I slept, but unlike when I'd awoken previously, this time I felt somewhat refreshed. The building I was in was still almost completely pitch dark, but I could see a glimmer of light coming in from around the doorframe.

I pulled open the door and let in the daylight. The sun was up and the sky was blue, with barely any clouds to be seen. A light breeze was blowing, but it was clear that today was going to be a warm day.

I considered stepping out into the heat of the day, but paused for a moment on the threshold before turning back into the building to investigate further. I'm not sure what made me do this — maybe I caught a glimpse of something, maybe I heard something, perhaps it was just an irrational feeling I had, without any reasonable explanation. But I felt it was important. There was something here.

Even with the light of the day coming in through the front door, the corridor I was in was still dark. I had to feel my way along until I came to a staircase leading upwards. I tentatively placed a foot on the first step — it creaked, but it seemed to bear my weight just fine. Little by little, I gingerly crept up the stairs, hoping with each movement that I wouldn't find the one rotten board and fall through, causing myself injury.

When I made it to the top, I breathed a sigh of relief. It was still dark, but I could see a hint of light coming from somewhere — under a door, perhaps? I felt my way through the oppressive darkness towards the light and fumbled around on the wall. It was indeed a door, and if I could just find the handle I could–

My hand hit the sweet spot unexpectedly and pushed the door open a little harder than I'd intended. I stumbled forwards and the door banged against something inside the room. Light was coming in through a window in the room, bringing some much-needed illumination to the gloom of the rest of the building.

Much of the room was still bathed in shadow but I could see enough to tell that it was a bedroom. A metal-framed bed stood to one side, its covers messed up. I mentally kicked myself for not investigating the building further and finding somewhere more comfortable than the hard floor of the corridor to rest, but it was too late now.

I quickly retracted my self-beratement when I realised that the rucked-up covers were not just rucked-up covers, but that there was something underneath them. Hands trembling with anticipation at what I might find, I slowly pulled back the duvet to reveal what appeared to be a sleeping woman, lying there on her side.

I let out a sharp breath. I wasn't alone. This woman was here. But she was — what? Asleep? Dead? I wasn't sure. She certainly wasn't moving, and there was no sound of breathing. She clasped something in her hand, but I couldn't see what it was.

"Uh, excuse me?" I said. My voice cracked. It felt like a very long time since I had used it. "Excuse me?" I said again, clearing my dry throat.

There was no response from the woman, who just continued to lie there. Although she wasn't moving or making noise, she didn't look dead, either. Her cheeks were still flushed with colour, her skin was still smooth, and there was no sign of decomposition anywhere. Was she dead, or just sleeping?

I looked her up and down, feeling slightly dirty and voyeuristic while doing so. She was a slender woman of I'd guess about thirty years of age. Her blonde hair fell around her shoulders but was obviously unkempt and unstyled while she lay in the bed. She was dressed in a black satin nightgown with small, thin straps which ran over her shoulders and then crossed over her back in an attractive pattern. She was good-looking, to be sure, but her pleasing appearance didn't stop the lingering feeling of unease I had.

I reached out to grab her by the shoulder and shake her gently, then paused for a moment. What would I say? Being rudely awakened by a strange man shaking her was probably not how she wanted to start the day. On the other hand, it was possible that she was in the same position as I was — bereft of memories, feeling that she was alone, wondering whether life was still worth living.

I steeled myself and moved my hand to touch her. As soon as my fingertips made contact, however, I drew them sharply back with a horrified intake of breath.

Before my eyes, at my touch, the woman crumbled to dust, a cloud of which simply blew into the air and scattered around the room, as if she'd never really been there at all and I'd just been beating on a dusty old mattress.

Had I imagined it? My mind had certainly been playing tricks on me recently with the voice — Adam, I miss you, it said over and over in moments when I needed clarity of thought — but had I hallucinated the existence of the strange woman?

Then I saw it on the bed. A small black object — presumably the thing she'd been holding in her hand. It was a portable touchscreen phone. A white wire connected to the bottom of it at one end, and snaked off somewhere to the side of the bed at the other. I followed the wire and found it led to an electrical socket. I couldn't tell from looking at it if it was still live or not, but felt it would be unlikely, given the surroundings.

My unspoken question was answered when the phone gave a soft buzz and its screen lit up, revealing a clock and a picture of a battery that appeared to be full. Curious, I reached out to pick up the phone, half expecting it to crumble to dust like the woman, but it remained reassuringly solid in my hand, but cold, like it had been kept in a fridge.

I pressed the only button I could see on the face of the phone. "Slide to unlock," the screen said.

I obliged.

#oneaday Day 653: Wasteland Diaries, Part 1

[A word of explanation: I'm not doing NaNoWriMo, as once again I've completely forgotten it was going on until it's too late. So as a kind of halfway house sort of solution, I've decided that every day this month (except, err, yesterday) will be devoted to a section of a piece of extended creative writing. This will be largely improvisatory in nature — I'm not going to plan it in advance, just write. I will aim for a bare minimum of 1,000 words per day but reserve the right to go above that.]

I remember the bright flash, and then everything faded to black. When I awoke, I was here, surrounded by utter devastation, with no idea why. I don't remember what the flash was, just that it happened. And the sounds — awful, terrible screaming, then silence, though that may just have been my own consciousness slipping away, unable to process the horrors that were undoubtedly being inflicted before me.

I awoke, lying on the floor, outside. Dust was everywhere. The hard concrete ground on which I lay was cracked and broken. My body ached, and I groaned as I pulled myself to my feet unsteadily. My muscles were stiff, like I hadn't used them for a lifetime, and I struggled to keep myself upright. I staggered over to a nearby low, crumbling wall and propped myself up against it, breathless with the exertion.

I surveyed my surroundings. This was obviously once a built-up area but now the buildings were just hollow, gutted shells of what they once were. Windows were smashed, walls were falling down — and there was no sign of any people anywhere. Just me. Alone. Against the world, with nothing — and not even a memory of why this was happening to make it easier to deal with.

I pulled off a chunk of loose brick from the wall I was leaning on and held it between my fingers, considering it, examining it. It told me nothing, and it was so fragile that it eventually crumbled to dust between my fingers, the small grey cloud it made sweeping away from me in the gentle breeze that flowed down this deserted, ruined street.

I pushed myself off from the wall and attempted to stand unaided. This didn't look like the sort of place I should hang around by myself, even if there were no people anywhere to be seen. Ducking into a building around here looked out of the question, as most of them looked unsafe, with collapsed doorways and unstable-looking walls giving me chills.

But still, no-one.

I heard a voice in my head. Adam, it said, smooth and feminine and slightly familiar — though the second I tried to call up the repressed, lost memory, it flitted away like a bug from a child. Adam, I miss you.

"Adam". I didn't know if it really was my name or not, but I decided to adopt it if anyone asked. If indeed there was anyone else left besides me.

It didn't bear thinking about, but there was nothing I could do if it did happen to be true. Besides, the voice in my head, though I didn't know who it was, was comforting somehow — it made me feel that I was less alone, even though the silence of the empty streets was becoming increasingly oppressive.

I picked a direction and started following the shattered road. I didn't know where I was going, but anything was better than standing on that blasted corner, contemplating things that I might never know. There was doubtless a long journey ahead of me, and I wasn't sure of its final destination — knowledge, or death?

My footsteps echoed in the empty street, and crunched on the crumbling paving slabs beneath my boots. I was walking slowly, but the sound of my feet — seemingly unnaturally loud thanks to the total absence of other sound around me — gave me something to focus on, a sense of purpose. I would not be defeated by that which had stripped the life from this city. I would press onward. I would survive.

As I progressed along the road, the damage to the buildings seemed to become somewhat less severe. While their windows were still shattered and broken, many still had intact doorways and walls, piquing my curiosity as to what I might find within. I picked a large building with what had obviously once been wall-height glass windows on the front, and stepped into the relative darkness within to investigate.

Row after row of shelves presented themselves before me. Some had toppled over, spreading their contents over the floor. Others remained upright, but had been mostly picked clean. A sour smell filled the air and, looking at the mouldy piles of scattered foodstuffs, it wasn't hard to see why.

I delved deeper into the darkness, making every effort to control my gag reflex as the sour smell grew stronger. Most of the packages had faded, but the odd thing caught my attention — dog food, washing powder, bottles of various brightly-coloured liquids. One aisle was filled with various metal implements, many of which were corroded, but I found myself a serviceable-looking sharp knife and pocketed it just in case I ran into any trouble. It wasn't looking likely right now, but it certainly didn't hurt to be careful.

Down another aisle, I found myself a battered-looking pack. I hoisted it onto my back, figuring that if I was going to scavenge any supplies from here, I'd better have something to put them in.

One aisle held row after row of metallic tinned goods. Some of the labels were still legible, though some had faded and some looked scorched. Some tins looked completely sealed and impossible to open, others had a ring pull on top which meant they could be opened easily. I scooped a selection into my pack and took them with me. The additional weight of my load took some getting used to, but by the time I emerged from the building into the street again, I was accustomed to it.

The sun was setting and the light was fading. I could feel the heat fading from the air, making way to a cool night-time breeze. I'd just woken from a slumber of I didn't know how long, so I didn't feel sleepy, though a curious, unidentifiable noise I heard in the distance as the light continued to dim made me feel that settling into some sort of shelter for the night might not be a bad idea afteer all.

I ducked into another building with an intact door and closed it firmly behind me. The metallic locking mechanism was corroded, but still seemed to work, so I bolted myself inside the building. The lack of windows meant that it was completely dark inside — not that it was much better outside by now.

I sat down on the floor and breathed deeply. Something truly terrible had happened, and I didn't know what. The worst part of it, though, was not knowing if I'd lost anyone important to me. So far as my memories were concerned, I was the only person there was — had been, and always would be.

Adam, came the voice again. I miss you.

So long as I could hear her, I couldn't believe that I was the only person alive. There had to be an explanation for all this, and I was going to find it.

Sleep claimed me quickly, despite the fact I'd only awoken an hour or two earlier, and I sank into a mental darkness free of cares, worries and dreams.

#oneaday Day 608: Pain Killer

Aimee Lee had been wracked with inexplicable pains for several days now. She couldn't explain them, nor did she feel that she could bother the doctors with them. She couldn't talk to her friends about them, because she didn't have any friends. But every night, it seemed, the pain got worse, and always, after she did manage to succumb to sleep, she woke the next morning feeling as if she has been beaten, battered and abused.

But there's no-one there. No-one has beaten her, no-one has taken advantage of her, no-one has violated her. She's all alone. She has been ever since the day when she decided enough was enough, and called the police on her abusive boyfriend, who took him away, never to be seen again.

"Bitch!" he'd called after her as he was forcibly removed from the premises, her trembling figure cowering in the corner as a female police officer spoke to her in a calm, low voice, assuring her that everything was going to be all right now. "Whore! You'll suffer! You'll suffer!"

She'd come to this town of her own volition, given up her life for the man she thought she loved, and for a while all was well. But then his fury started. Every day she'd dread the turning of the key in the lock, for it would mean that he would be back again, and the beatings would start. She'd often be in tears even before he arrived in the house, but that would only fuel his aggression. There was no explanation for it, and on the few occasions where he did prove to be lucid, he had no justification for it, either.

But she missed him. There had been love there, once, and amidst all the abuse and horrors, she knew that he was surely still the man she had fallen for and given everything up for. After a while, she even found herself longing to hear his voice in any form — even if it was yelling at her, a prelude to another beating.

It was in this admission that the shadow found its way into her soul. A fleeting thought, that was all it took for it to take hold. And then the pain started — a dull ache in her limbs at first, but gradually growing in intensity night by night. By now, by the time she eventually passed out from the pain — she couldn't call it "falling asleep" — her body was wracked with the agony of a thousand burning needles searing her flesh, though her skin bore no scars.

The girl knew the signs as soon as she became aware of Aimee. She had come across this kind of horror before, and she knew all too well that if it were not dealt with quickly, Aimee's mind and body would tear themselves apart, whether the agony were real or imagined.

So it was that she stepped into Aimee's mind, flickering energy running up her arm letting her know that the blade with which she had already dispatched so many similar terrors hungered for the blood of the dark one responsible for this particular mess.

The room she found herself in was dark, its walls made of stone, and dull lights sitting in sconces high on the walls.

How cliché, she thought. A dungeon. Perhaps this'll be simpler than I thought.

A moan from somewhere in the darkness led her to the prone figure of Aimee, lying on the floor, clad in a white dress that was already stained crimson with blood.

"Please!" cried Aimee, her voice quavering with tears. Invisible lashes cause her body to jolt with pain, fresh wounds opening with each hit. "Please!"

The girl stood watching this horrific sight, her jaw set. She wouldn't have called herself "embittered" or "cynical" but she had been doing this for some time now, and she knew that to become emotionally invested in the situation was to show weakness to the shadow.

"Show yourself," she muttered, clearing her throat then uttering it again. "Show yourself!"

Aimee's writhing stopped as the invisible lashes ceased to batter her body. The darkness seemed to shift around her, taking form, becoming a recognisable shape.

"Uh-huh," said the girl. "Let me guess. Couldn't get no satisfaction, so decided to take to beating on this poor girl to get your ya-yas."

The male figure before her snarled, black smoke billowing from his head as he did so. There was to be no parley, it seemed, as it lurched straight at the girl — but she was ready for him, deftly stepping aside and flourishing her arm as she had done so many times, the blade flashing and appearing ready in her hand as she summoned it.

The shadowy, smoky figure lunged at her again, tackling her and slamming her against a wall. Aimee screamed as she watched — she knew his violence all too well, both in reality and here in her own mind, and was terrified to see it inflicted on another. She sobbed, taking big gulps of air as she hoped the girl could escape his terrible clutches.

She did. Kicking away the shadowy figure and slashing at him with the curious blade she held in her right hand, the girl moved with the agility and speed of a cat. She wasn't going to be caught out again. By the time the smoky figure crudely lurched at her again, she was already elsewhere, slashing at his body with her sword, but even a direct hit caused only black smoke to spew from the wound, not blood.

"Hey!" said the girl, addressing the terrified Aimee for the first time. "What do you want? This isn't going to work if you don't know."

Aimee didn't know what she meant. She watched the unfolding scene with tears blurring her vision, unable to stand, the pain from her wounds stinging her body and leaving her immobile.

"Come on!" said the girl. "I can't help you if you don't help me. I need you to know, Aimee. I need you to say it."

Aimee gulped, swallowed some air, hiccuped and sobbed again. What did this strange girl mean? And who was she? Aimee had never seen her before in her life, but somehow the girl knew her — or at least her name.

The shadowy figure's blow found its target, and the girl was sent clattering across the ground, winded, blade still clutched firmly in her right hand. It turned back to Aimee, menace in its glowing red eyes. It began to advance — far more threatening now it has a visible form than when it lashed her body with invisible strokes.

Aimee screamed. This isn't what she wanted. She wanted things to be back how they once were — back when she was in love, back before he was engulfed with this inexplicable rage. She wanted —

"I want," said Aimee uneasily, staring in fright at the advancing figure. "I want — I want the pain to stop!"

The girl leapt to her feet.

"That's it," she said. "You never wanted this abuse. You never wanted this pain. Once you thought you might, and that's how you let this thing in. But now you know that way lies only suffering. So I'm here to help with that."

She plunged the blade deep into the back of the shadowy, smoky figure, which let out an ear-splitting howl before whirling around in an attempt to strike back at its assailant.

"Come on!" cried the girl. "Torture's such an easy, boring way to inflict pain. Take me instead! I'll give you a fight."

She struck again, slicing at its face this time. The blade found its target, and this time instead of smoke, black ichor spewed forth. The girl hopped backwards to avoid the spray.

"Made that mistake before," she said, more to herself than the horrified Aimee. "That shit never comes out."

Aimee watched in astonishment. Tears still stung her eyes and blurred her vision, but the sheer oddness of the scene before her almost made her forget the pain that had brought her to her knees in the first place.

The girl plunged the blade deep into the shadowy figure's torso now, and it let out a howl even worse than the first one. It seemed to shake the very foundations of the room they were in. Its foul black blood sprayed again as the girl twisted the blade, no trace of anger on her face, to all intents and purposes looking as if she was simply screwing a piece of furniture together rather than doing untold damage to the innards of some monstrous creature.

Finally, the figure let out one last roar and exploded in a cloud of black smoke, a torrent of the black ichor suddenly falling to the floor and splattering across it, leaving a stain. There was a silence for a moment, then the blade simply seemed to disappear from the girl's hand.

"Thank you," said Aimee, though she still wasn't quite sure what had just happened.

"You're welcome," said the girl, who promptly vanished.

Aimee gasped and opened her eyes. She saw the familiar sight of her bedroom ceiling above her and was momentarily disoriented. What had just happened?

She had no answer to that question, but she knew one thing — the pain had stopped, just like she wanted.

But who was that girl?

#oneaday, Day 603: Midnight

The night-time was always the most difficult. It was in the dark of the night that the pain worsened, mentally and physically. Often she chose to forgo sleep in the twilight hours and rest during the daytime — it was not as if she led an especially active, social life, after all, and the sunlight kept the demons at bay.

Tonight was bad. Her whole body ached, and her mind throbbed with panic, frustration and fear. The worst part of it was that she couldn't reach the bottom of it — every time she felt like getting closer to some sort of explanation, it darted out of reach, just around a corner, like a mischievous gremlin determined to prolong her suffering for as long as possible.

While her body was old and broken and her waking mind often clouded with thoughts that should not be, her imagination was still as lithe and agile as a gymnast, and it was with this she often kept the pain away long enough to see the sun rise from behind the houses across the way.

So it was once again tonight. She sat in the chair she always took, positioned next to the window, at a slight angle so she could lean her elbow on the windowsill and look out without putting too much strain on her frail bones. The light of the moon was bright tonight, and illuminated the garden with an eerie glow that brought to mind images of ethereal spirits darting around, just out of eyeshot, constantly avoiding the curious gazes of those few who did not succumb to sleep during these peaceful hours.

She knew this was not really the case, of course, but for the majority of the time, the fantasy was far more appealing than the reality. Rather than picturing sinister, malevolent spirits, to her these were peaceful, tranquil spirits of nature, keeping a watchful eye on the world as its supposed masters slumbered. They knew that their job was futile, that mankind had already changed the world beyond recognition, but still they flitted to and fro, making their adjustments here and there. She stared through the window, picturing their machinations in her mind's eye, not even blinking.

As she gazed into the garden, the images became more vivid, and suddenly she was among them. She couldn't tell if she was still in her body or if she had taken on the translucent, ethereal, almost-invisible form of the spirits, and she didn't care. She flitted around the garden as delicately as a fairy, glancing at the leaves on a bush here, the petals on a flower there. The freedom of flight was liberating, exhilarating, and soon enough she shot up into the air, leaving her erstwhile companions below in the garden.

From high in the sky, the rows of tiny houses all looked identical. She was hard-pushed to identify her own, but she felt she had it, and swooped down towards the ground in a vertical dive to prove herself right. She giggled in delight at the feeling of the air sweeping past her face, something — her hair? Her clothes? It didn't matter — billowing out behind her. She pulled herself up sharply just before hitting the ground and looked up to see the familiar sight of her own back garden — the wobbly clothesline pole, the unkempt bushes, the lawn that was several inches too long (when was that nice boy coming back to fix it again?) and the solitary light in the upstairs window.

She gazed up at the window where she had left herself, a low light glowing providing just the faint indication of a presence, but not enough to see the figure she thought she would see gazing into the garden.

Then she was flying again, forward this time, at incredible speed. She skimmed the rooftops of she didn't know how many houses — one, two, a thousand? — until civilisation stopped and the rolling hills of the countryside began.

Out here was peace and quiet and solitude, but not the lonely kind. The full moon bathed the landscape in its soft, cold light and she felt that she was alone, but for once she was at peace. She came to rest atop a small, natural but aesthetically pleasing arrangement of rocks, and sat. The longer she sat, the more she felt a growing number of presences surrounding her. But this was not threatening — there was nothing in the hearts of these spirits but peace and love, and they were accepting her as one of their own. She felt ethereal hands reach out and touch her, so soft and delicate that they might have been made of gossamer. And she let them envelop her with their feelings of peace and love, because here there was no pain in body or mind, only the soft, cool glow of the moon.

When morning came she watched from a distance as the men in the bright coats carried her out under a blanket and placed her in the back of the ambulance. On her doorstep was the kindly nurse who had been so good to her, shedding a few tears. She was sorry she hadn't got to say goodbye to the few people left who cared, but that didn't matter now. She was free, and no longer did the night hold anything to fear.

She was free.

#oneaday Day 583: Creative Breakfast

I've reached a decision. Once all this moving stuff is over and done with I'm going to start writing these entries in the morning. There are many reasons for this, chief among which is the fact that by the time it gets to late evening I'm knackered and have already spent the day doing my day job which involves, yes, writing.

Part of this is sheet stubborn determination to not let tiredness and lack of creativity beat me. It would be easy to say I was fed up and tired of writing stuff every day. I'm not; it just feels a bit like it sometimes, particularly when it gets to 11pm and I haven't written anything — and often haven't thought of anything to write.

So the plan is thus: get up, eat breakfast, indulge in "creative breakfast" by writing blog in the morning. That way 1) it's out of the way in the morning and 2) my mind is already in a good mindset for writing.

It also helps avoid filler entries like this one which follow 4 hour drives.

So night night! Look forward to the new regime starting soon.

#oneaday Day 85: Help Wanted

Sometimes it's not clear how video game heroes got themselves into the situations they're in at the start of a game. It's at times like this that I like to imagine they answered a job advertisement like one of the following. Can you spot the games they're from?

WANTED: Caretaker for large medieval castle. Some internal renovations required. Successful applicants will have good athletic ability and will be unconcerned by stories of "the undead". What is a man? Anyone who can apply for this job—we don't discriminate. £DOE. Call Simon.

WANTED: Pest control technician to operate in secluded literacy-heavy society. Good performance in this role will lead to quick promotion prospects and the opportunity for a considerable amount of travel. The successful candidate must have good interpersonal and leadership skills, be open to the idea of taking on seemingly insurmountable challenges and be interested in their own lineage. £excellent. Ask for Gorion.

WANTED: Computer specialist for exciting new project in space. Must be well-versed in use of lead piping for improvisatory technical solutions, interested in the ethical implications of artificial intelligence and not easily terrified. £available on application. Call 01010011 01001000 01001111 01000100 01000001 01001110 and ask for Sharon.

WANTED: New recruits to police force for small Mid-Western town prone to outbreaks of bizarre crime and disease. Must be able to handle small to large firearms with no training, and have difficulty running both in a straight line and around corners. Floppy hair is beneficial, though not essential. £good. Call Claire.

WANTED: Refuse collection operative to trial new system of collecting waste. Successful applicant will have good ball-handling skills and be open to the idea of travel. £amazing. Call K. Cosmos.

WANTED: Ex-soldier with good leadership skills sought for assistance with new environmental project. Background unimportant. Familiarity with anachronistic weapon technologies a distinct advantage. £stupendous. Call Mr Wallace.

WANTED: New recruits to police force for the most geographically diverse region in North America. Must hold full, clean driving licence and be familiar with the operation of high-powered sports cars—we don't do things by halves here. Split-personality applicants who enjoy occasionally delving into street racing themselves are welcome to apply. £outrageous. Call Dispatch.

WANTED: Rapping dog to assist with unexpected noodle-related issues. Specialist problem requires specialist recruitment. £inconceivable. Call C. C. M. Onion.

WANTED: Color-blind gentleman with large neck sought for friendship, camaraderie and maybe more. Must not be afraid of insects. £not bad. Call Dom.

WANTED: New owner for ailing bookshop in French Quarter. Assistant provided. Your role will involve very little working in the shop and a lot of wandering around town. Would suit lazy, arrogant prig. £rubbish. Call Grace.

WANTED: Witch sought for a job that is "out of this world". Height a distinct advantage, as is familiarity with the use of pistols with both hands and feet. Can you sparkle, are you gonna shine? £fabulous. Call Rodin.

WANTED: News reporter. Must be able to dance and produce bulletins that look good but have no real content whatsoever. Female applicants preferred. £superfabulous. Call Fuse.

#oneaday Day 84: The Crossovers That Will Never Be

There's a ton of untapped potential in the world of the crossover. Comics have been wise to this for a long time, with DC and Marvel in particular being highly aware of the fact that all their superheroes are running around disparate parts of the same world and might just bump into each other on occasion.

But what would happen if some of the more bizarre crossovers came to fruition? Well, let's explore that, shall we?

Castlevania: Deep Space Nine

The most modern the series has got was with Soma Cruz, and even then it was still all bats and caves and swords and whatnot. Castlevania should go to space, and specifically to Deep Space Nine. Why? Because I had a dream about it so therefore it must be a good idea.

Benjamin Sisko discovers that as well as being the Emissary he is also a descendent of the Belmont clan and—horrors!—Dracula has found a way to harness the power of the Bajoran wormhole to summon forth the forces of Darkness into our reality. Fortunately, power of said wormhole also manages to summon Alucard, with little to no explanation as to why (this is Castlevania, you don't ask silly questions like "why?") who very carefully passes Sisko the Vampire Killer whip. Thus begins an exciting and thrilling co-operative adventure throughout the many decks of Deep Space Nine, culminating in a thrilling showdown with Dracula, who reprises his famous "What Is A Man?" speech in zero gravity.

Features narration by Patrick Stewart, as is the law for all new Castlevania games.

Dragon's Den: Origins

The Archdemon is rising, and the world needs a hero. But heroes don't just come out of nowhere. They need to be found.

Enter The Dragons: Peter Jones, Deborah Meaden, Theo Paphitis, Duncan Bannatyne and James Caan. A series of aspiring Heroes of Ferelden climb the stairs of destiny and pitch their ideas with which they believe they'll be able to take down the Archdemon. Only by securing a Dragon's investment in their expedition will they have a chance of success, otherwise they'll be doomed to wandering the land in rusty chainmail using swords that fall apart as soon as you hit a log with them.

Superman: The Krypton Factor

A brand new gameshow featuring Superman attempting to overcome a variety of physical and mental challenges, all of which are laced with kryptonite. Will Superman survive this episode? Will he finally succumb to kryptonite's influence? As the series finale, Superman has to defeat Gordon Burns in single combat, as it turns out that Burns, too, is also a superhero, but one who draws power from kryptonite instead of being weakened by it. WHO WILL PREVAIL?

Total WipeOut HD Fury

A combination of futuristic racing and people falling in the water repeatedly, the twist is that the courses which the high-speed anti-grav racers and the people running around have to follow are the same, causing significant risk to life and limb for anyone hopping over those giant Super Mario mushrooms whilst the pack bears down on them at approximately 700mph. The winner is the team whose antigrav racer and panicking human both survive.

The Hairy Bikers in: Road Rash

The Hairy Bikers have had enough, and have decided to take on a gruesome, brutal world tour atop their throbbing motorbikes. Along the way, they smack the shit out of anyone unfortunate enough to cross their path, collect the meat from the smouldering corpses and cook it into a delicious recipe between each stage of their journey.