I was pondering my own mental health earlier, as I often do. And there are some things I need to try and do.
First, I need to figure out what has happened to my attention span with regard to things that I don't particularly want to do. I'm trying to determine whether my atrocious attention span right now is due to going stir crazy at home, if it's due to the medication I take for anxiety (which anecdotal reports seem to suggest can affect one's attention span at least temporarily) or if it's a combination of many and varied factors. I suspect the latter; I've been taking the meds for a while and thus I feel like I'd have probably noticed this a bit sooner if it was just them causing issues.
Secondly, I need to figure out how to just… cope with day to day life. Realistically, I need my day job for the moment, and however much I find myself not enjoying it, trying to "avoid" it, as I have been to a certain extent, is not going to help matters; in fact, it will probably create problems in the long term. This side of things is something I can at least do something reasonably concrete about.
One of the reasons my day job frustrates me is because it's boring and easy, which makes me not want to fart around with it. Which means I end up putting things off for hours and hours without really achieving anything productive or helpful in the meantime. So, clearly what I need to do is simply take the boring and easy things and bash them out as quickly as possible as one of the first things I do in the day. That way, they're done, and I potentially have the rest of the day to do whatever I want to do, since I'm working from home and there's no-one to check up on me.
When you're talking about the irrationality of mental health, all this is, of course, much easier said than done, but recognising an issue is an important first step in being able to deal with it. So I'm going to do my best to start looking at things… if not positively, then at least a bit more practically from tomorrow morning, and we'll see how things go.
There's always Magicami, Atelier and Olympic video games to distract me for a little while if it all gets a bit much, after all.
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