#oneaday Day 357: Push It

I've been slacking a bit in my gym routine recently due to various instances of being ill, but I went last night and had what I felt like was a pretty good session. I deliberately decided to try and push myself a bit, particularly on the exercise bike, and it felt quite satisfying.

There's always a bit of a balance you have to find when it comes to this sort of thing. When pushing yourself further than usual, there's a distinct possibility you might not be able to do quite as much as when you're going more "casually", and indeed that was the case last night. While I can happily do half an hour of pretty casual cycling on the exercise bike, I managed ten minutes with a bit more intensity last night. I didn't feel too bad, though; I felt like I'd achieved something. And I think trying to push myself like that a little more often is the way to improve rather than just plateau.

I need to get my eating habits in order though. Andie and I took a break from Slimming World a while back because we were both feeling demotivated and kind of sick of the stuff you end up eating on that, but we're both still trying to be reasonably good. Operative word: trying. We're not as bad as we used to be, but we're also not particularly eating in a way that is conducive to losing weight, though.

If nothing else, I'm planning for a bit of a "reset" when the new year rolls around. Get into new, good habits — or re-establish old ones — and sort things out as much as possible. I'm also going back to the local counselling service to see if they can help at all; my mental health has been all over the shop of late, so having some means of hopefully stabilising it a bit will be worthwhile and helpful.

I've got this nagging sense in my head that I want… something to be "over", finished with, done. But there's nothing that really can be "over", finished with, done. It's just the ongoing challenge that is everyday existence in this modern world. I long for simpler, happier times.