#oneaday Day 315: Ugh

It's been a horrible day today, for a variety of reasons.

I had a shitty day at work that left me feeling like absolute crap; I won't go into specific details, but it's the first time in quite a while I feel like my Asperger's has let me down, and it left me feeling like a total failure of a human being for most of the rest of the working day. Rationally speaking what happened ultimately doesn't matter and I'm sure everyone (except me) will have probably forgotten about it by tomorrow, but it still made me feel like crap, particularly as I'm already in a bit of a shitty place mental health-wise.

I've witnessed a bunch of real unpleasantness among the retro gaming community on Twitter recently, including bullying and harassment of several people, and culminating with the thoroughly pleasant and entertaining Octav1us posting a tearful video about how terrified she is after being on the receiving end of what can only be described as copyright harassment via YouTube's stupid systems.

And my Dad's best friend passed away today. I didn't know Bob that well, but I met him a few times and he was always a wonderful, joyful man with a kind and funny word to say. Plus he helped me get my first car. I know how important he was to my parents — particularly once they managed to reconnect after many years thanks to Friends Reunited, of all things, remember that? — so it's upsetting to think of them grieving over someone who was so important to them. Rest in peace, Bob; you will be greatly missed.

All in all, a pretty shit day. I think I just need to shut down for the night and hope there's one hell of a "reboot" in the morning.

Hope your day has been better.