#oneaday Day 249: Tired

I'm tired. I think the last few weeks are catching up with me a bit. I don't mean the gym stuff — that's actually been invigorating and inspiring me somewhat, so I'm definitely going to keep that up — but rather the mental health issues I've been dealing with of late. I feel I'm somewhat over the worst right now, but there are still plenty of things pinging around inside my head that I'm anxious or depressed about, and some of them aren't the sort of things that can be easily banished or "fixed".

Still, I am at least finding myself looking "forward" somewhat rather than feeling completely trapped in the "bubble" I found myself talking about a little while back. It's often when I'm at my lowest that I feel the most inspired as a creator… and I'm pretty sure this is a fairly common thing. When you feel bad, you want to express your feelings somehow, even if the specific feelings you want to express aren't the "negative" ones that are bringing you grief.

To that end, I had great fun recording some videos yesterday and earlier today, helping me get ahead of schedule on several of my ongoing series. Of particular note for me were the Final Fantasy videos, which I'm really enjoying recording as I love the game and I'm delighting in telling some stories, commenting on the game and doing some terrible voice acting; and also an Atari ST A to Z video I recorded on Uninvited earlier today. I've not played that before, but I was thoroughly immersed in what I was doing; it was great fun. Even if I couldn't get it to save my game.

As I've noted elsewhere, I'm slightly behind "schedule" on Cover Game features, so the site is still rocking the The Expression: Amrilato colours right now. This week, at the very least I'll have the introduction to the next Cover Game feature up by the end of Friday, and, depending on progress, perhaps something else too. I'm also still ploughing (no pun intended) through LOVE³ -Love Cube- and really enjoying it, so I'm currently prioritising that, as I'm keen to give that an in-depth writeup when I'm done.

Thanks to all of you for sticking by me through difficult times. It's really nice to feel like people have your back and want to help me continue to do the things I love doing. So thanks for that.