Sorry, forgot to write yesterday. Too much Custom Order Maid 3D 2. I was expecting to do a quick runthrough of its main features, assuming it would be almost identical to Custom Maid 3D 2 with some minor additions, but instead… well, this happened and before I knew it it was midnight. Whoops.
I am having… a bit of a variable time in terms of wellbeing right now, I'll be honest.
On the one hand, I'm pleased that I'm managing to stick to my new early-morning routine of getting up by 6.30am at the latest (ideally earlier… though that doesn't always happen) and going to the gym. At the time of writing, I've been to the gym every weekday morning since last Monday. I'm at the point where I'm actually quite enjoying myself there. It helps, of course, that I watch some short-form anime such as Magical Senpai, Why the Hell Are You Here, Teacher!? and Are You Lost? while I'm doing cardio and have How Heavy Are the Dumbbells You Lift? opening theme Onegai Muscle on loop while I'm doing weight training, but I'm also just… quite enjoying it. Who'd have thought it?
On the other hand, I'm feeling very down right now. Depression and anxiety are really doing their best to do a number on me, frequently giving me feelings of bleak frustration and stress over nothing in particular. I'm feeling somewhat bored and unfulfilled at my day job — largely exacerbated by these feelings — but I'm also frustrated because I know that 1) it's a good job and 2) if I go somewhere else I'll almost certainly end up feeling this way there, too.
I'm just trying to focus on the things I love doing, which are making videos and writing stuff for MoeGamer. Those things consistently make me happy, satisfied and creatively fulfilled, so even if I'm feeling dissatisfied with the rest of my life to a degree that it's making me feel bad for quite a lot of the time, I can rely on those things to bring me joy when I have the opportunity to work on them.
With that in mind, I thank you all once again for your ongoing support and for believing in what I do enough to want to help me out. It really means a lot.
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