#oneaday Day 694: The joy of hyperfixations

I've done a lot of work on my Secret Creative Project over the course of the last few days. I am feeling a strong amount of Autistic Hyperfixation Energy on it right now — even if I do often have to juggle this with the equally autistic tendencies to fiddle around with the bits I've already created over and over rather than continuing to make new bits.

Thus far the project is standing at 16,826 words. I anticipate that by the time I finish this — which will be a pretty long time from now — that number will be in the high six digits at the very least. There's a lot of work still to do, but I feel good about this; I feel like this is a worthwhile undertaking, and one that I'm enjoying doing.

It's not something I plan to make any money from; it's not something I plan to plaster ads all over; it's not something I'm doing to "be famous" or anything like that. It's just a project based on something I enjoy that I think will help others to enjoy said thing as much as I do. Plus it's an excuse for me to dive down some thoroughly interesting research rabbit-holes.

Doing this is reminding me that I love writing, particularly about the things I'm passionate about. (Go on then; I'll give you a little hint as to what the project is about: it is, perhaps unsurprisingly, about games.) I love the little journeys that bits of research take you on; I love trying to craft a narrative from those nuggets of information you find; I love trying to get my enthusiasm across in a way that is hopefully enjoyable for the reader to engage with.

I don't know if I'll ever finish this. I would certainly like to, and while I'm feeling the strong Autistic Hyperfixation Energy, I intend to keep taking advantage of it as much as possible. I reached what I consider to be the first major milestone in the project this evening… out of many milestones along the way, yes, but a significant one, nonetheless. It feels like finally cresting a particularly steep hill, so I am going to "reward" myself with some nice relaxing time tomorrow. I haven't played Pragmata for a few days and need to get back on that, but this has been taking priority while I've been feeling very much in the mood for it.

On that note, though, it's after midnight, and I think I should probably get some sleep now.


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#oneaday, Day 100!

And there it is. With little fanfare, just after midnight on the day before my birthday, I hit the big 100. That's one hundred days of continuous blogging. And, while some older entries have now been set to private for reasons I won't go into, I have 100 posts all lined up one after the other showing me… well, nothing really. Nothing apart from the fact that I can keep up a commitment I set to myself to do something that I enjoy and is of at least marginal benefit to me.

Blogging is cathartic. At least to me. Some people focus their blogs on one particular narrow subject and make that specialist subject the only thing they talk about. I've toyed with that idea for some time – this being me we're talking about, video games are a big part of that, but that's not the only interesting thing that goes on in the world. In limiting myself to talking about one thing and one thing only, I'd be limiting my potential audience, even if the company I mostly keep online are largely video game enthusiasts themselves, too.

One thing I have enjoyed about writing these #oneaday posts is the opportunity to write something a bit different. Some days it'll just be a personal comment, like today. Other days I'll do a write-up on a particular issue. Other days I'll post photos. Looking at the stats, though, it's sometimes difficult to see patterns. The best day recently (with a mighty 90 views) was the day I responded to Roger Ebert's "games will never be art" assertion (after midnight) and later that day (after actually sleeping) posted some pictures with the iPhone Hipstamatic app. The Ebert issue was a hot topic, so it's unsurprising that saw a big spike. I had a similar pattern when I posted about Kevin Smith's experience with SouthWest Air, another hot topic of discussion around the Internet.

So I guess if I'm chasing page views, hot topics are the way forward. Well, duh.

But I'm not going for page views, really. I mean, it's always gratifying to know that people are reading what I'm writing (and even better, responding in the comments) but when I write these things, I'm doing it for me. Keeping it daily like this is like keeping a diary, something I've done several times in the past. I always used to greatly enjoy keeping a diary but always, without fail, ended up writing something so utterly mortifyingly embarrassing in it that I'd end up throwing the book out in case anyone ever saw it. I actually regret that now, as lame as the things I wrote were (usually involving chicks) as if there's one thing I always enjoy doing, it's reading back over past things I've written.

Over the last couple of days, I've been re-reading this blog from the beginning. It being a blog and not a novel, there's obviously not a sense of structure. But there is a curious sense of narrative, whether it's saying an open and heartfelt goodbye to the family pet, discussing my time with No-One Lives Forever (still a top search term to find this blog), exploring the stranger side of indie games or reviewing a local band. I remember these things happening, as small and inconsequential as they mostly are, because I wrote about them. We all have "big memories" of the life-shaping events that take place in our lives – good or bad. But the thing I'm truly appreciating about this whole exercise is that it gives me the opportunity to remember the little things, too, however little relevance they may hold to the "big picture".

If you've read anything at all on this blog before, you've shared in some of those memories. They may not seem significant to you. Some of them don't even seem significant to me. But thanks for letting me share all those things with you. I hope I've entertained, informed or at least given you something to do while you're bored. I've certainly enjoyed writing them – at no point has it ever felt like a chore. Which is, as they say, a Good Thing.

It figures that on a big milestone day like this one, I go off onto a completely dumb stream of consciousness ramble. There are many more days ahead of this one, each holding new memories ready to commit to a post. I'm looking forward, wondering what will come next.

Here's to the next 100. Good night.