I recently picked up the Capcom Fighting Collection 2, primarily on the strength of it having Project Justice in there — one of a few games from the PS1-Dreamcast era that I seriously regret letting go of at some point in the past, considering the prices they command now. (The other is Castlevania: Symphony of the Night on PS1.) And, spending a bit of time mashing buttons through a brief attempt at Project Justice last night, it got me thinking: I should spend more time with games that are not just about getting from beginning to end, and then being done with them.
I've had this thought before, of course. But I'm feeling particularly conscious of it once again, particularly after rolling credits on Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 at the end of last week. Games that have a clear beginning, middle and end are great, and nothing will ever make me want to step away from experiencing games with particularly strong stories. But I'm also very aware of the fact that there are gaming experiences I specifically shy away from because they're not something you can start, work your way through, and finish.
I'm not really talking about what some people call "lifestyle games" like Fortnite and Minecraft. I'm talking about things like arcade games, fighting games, that sort of thing. But also the kinds of games that are friendly to just dipping into for a bit, having a good time and then setting them aside again for a while.
I think part of the problem I have is that so many games these days want to attach a story to the experience. It can feel like a somewhat overwhelming commitment to have multiple titles on the go at once, if you hope to keep all these narratives straight in your head. Of course, some might argue that the stories in some games aren't really worth thinking about too hard — but at the same time, I've played enough games over the years that have been less than favourably received critically, but which actually turned out to have meaningful and worthwhile things to say. I want to pay attention, but sometimes it feels difficult and overwhelming to.
Having finished Clair Obscur, I'm heading back into the Xenoblade Chronicles X Definitive Edition trenches as my "main" game. But perhaps I shouldn't think of it like that. If I think of something as a "main" game, that invites a sense of guilt when I play something that is not that. And, realistically speaking, I have zero obligations to anyone in terms of what I play. I never have done, except perhaps when I was working on gaming publications and was obliged to have played the things that I reviewed. (And quite right, too.)
This is definitely, as I think I've said before, a mindset that I have accidentally conditioned myself into. Back in earlier times — I think probably Xbox 360/PS3 and backwards — I had absolutely no problem jumping back and forth between all manner of different games according to mood. When I found something that gripped me, I'd stick with it; when I wasn't in the mood for something, I wouldn't play it, and I certainly wouldn't spend any time feeling a weirdly anxious sense of quasi-panic about whether I really should be playing it just because I'd started it.
Part of what got me into this mental mess is the desire to create things online: videos and articles. I've always loved creating things, and having the opportunity to just share all these things that I love with the world is great. But it also, at times, affects my brain in somewhat unwelcome ways. Should I play this game For Fun, or should I play it with a mind to Making Something About It? The correct answer is "it doesn't matter, it can be both, or it can be just one, just do what you feel like you want to do at any given time rather than agonising over it".
I don't think the answer is specifically scheduling my time. I tried that a while back for a feature on MoeGamer, and while the experiment was an interesting one, I think it's too inflexible, and it takes things too far in the other direction. What if I'm not in the mood to play a sim on Tuesdays? What then?
This hobby is supposed to be fun, and with the sheer amount of stimulation it offers these days, it's easy to get very overwhelmed. At times like that, you need to take a step back, think "yes, I actually do feel like playing Project Justice this evening, even though I still have Xenoblade on the go" and then go bloody well play Project Justice.
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