I've had a bit of a rough day mental health-wise today. Trouble is, it doesn't really feel "right" to talk much about it right now what with All The Other Shit Going On in The World Right Now.
However, All The Other Shit Going On in The World Right Now is part of what's contributing to it all, I think. I am not a smart man when it comes to Things Going On in The World, and I have a tendency to want to believe that most of the time, human beings are "all right" and generally do the right thing. When I get reminded that no, there are still significant portions of humanity who are not "all right" and who do not generally do the right thing… well, it sounds strange to say, but it stresses me out.
I realise this is a ridiculous thing to say when people out there are getting injured and dying for their causes, and I 100% accept that. But, to be perfectly honest, that is about the limit of my being able to process everything that is happening. I'm exhausted, mentally and physically. I don't know what to do, I don't know if I should do anything, I get frustrated at the online noise about it, then I get frustrated at myself for being frustrated at the noise when it is actually over something important for once rather than a Californian undergrad Social Sciences student's hobby horse of the hour.
I dunno. I flipped some money at itch for their enormous 740+ charity indie game bundle the other day, and I've had a good laugh at One Angry Gamer for his "Traitors of America" list. It was particularly amusing to see everyone from all "sides" of the Internet to come together and laugh at his idiocy, but it's also a bit depressing to see, say, The Joy of Sticks on YouTube — one of the calmest, most pleasant folks out there — getting thumbs downs on his Atari ST videos for acknowledging the situation in the world.
The Internet is dumb. I think I'm going to spend the rest of the evening having a bit of peace and quiet if at all possible, and hopefully wake up a bit more ready to face the world tomorrow.
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