#oneaday Day 176: Take a Bow

Today, I played through all of the first Laura Bow game, The Colonel’s Bequest. I enjoyed it a lot! You can read more about my thoughts on the subject right here, and a full Let’s Play of the game will kick off on my YouTube channel from tomorrow. It’s just three (long) episodes rather than a lot of 30-minute episodes like I did with The Case of the Serrated Scalpel last year, as I felt that fit the format of the game a bit better, and the overall structure of The Colonel’s Bequest is… well, quite different from pretty much any adventure game I’ve played.

But enough of that. What’s next? The Dagger of Amon Ra, of course! This is the follow-up to The Colonel’s Bequest, and I’m going to do my best to play it through and record it tomorrow. I don’t know if it’s longer, shorter, easier, harder… the only thing I do know is that it uses point-and-click controls instead of The Colonel’s Bequest’s text parser, and it quizzes you on what happened at the end, so you need to make notes, just like Laura herself.

Then after that, I’ll start having a look at The Crimson Diamond. Plus alongside all this, I might do something similar to what I did last year (“3 interesting DOS discoveries”, “5 DOS games I always wanted to play” and “5 of the best early FPSes”) if I can figure out what I might want to cover for videos in that style. I haven’t started looking yet. Racing games is a possibility — a good excuse to bust out the Screamer series, perhaps? — or flight sims. Space combat sims? I don’t know. I haven’t decided yet. Looking at shareware stuff I used to like is also a distinct possibility, perhaps from the perspective of “shareware games I always wanted to try the Registered version of”, since the only Registered shareware game I had back in the day was Wolfenstein 3-D, which I got for free after making some levels that were included in the official “Super Upgrades” expansion pack.

I’ve probably told this story at least once on this blog before, right? Well, regardless, I’ll tell it again, ’cause you might be new around here. It’s a story of delightfully happy coincidence.

Back at the time I was playing Wolfenstein 3-D on the family PC, I was involved with a local shareware library. I did a bit of part time work helping them out at local computer fairs, writing their catalogues and that sort of thing. I don’t remember getting paid for this, but it was decent experience and I got lots of freebies from the shareware library, which was nice.

Among those disks that I got for free were numerous Wolfenstein 3-D editors, and they worked with the shareware version. So I made a bunch of levels.

I forget the exact circumstances of how the next bit came about, but I was browsing the GAMERS forum on CompuServe one day, when I found myself in contact with a gentleman called, as I recall, Carlton somethingorother. He was a representative from Apogee, and he was looking for new Wolfenstein 3-D levels to include in the upcoming data disk for the game. There was money on offer for anyone whose levels were included. After consulting with my parents — online safety and all that — I submitted my pack of ten levels to him, expecting never to hear from him ever again.

Imagine my surprise when a few months later, I got a package from the United States containing a cheque for $200, plus a registered copy of Wolfenstein 3-D and the new Super Upgrades pack, which included my levels, along with a bunch of other community contributions. So technically I’m a professional game designer.

But anyway. Yeah. That copy of Wolfenstein 3-D was the only Registered shareware game I had, because it was the early days of the Internet (in fact, via CompuServe, our “ISP” at the time, you couldn’t even access the Web, and had to append “INTERNET:” to any email addresses you were sending messages to outside of the CompuServe service) and my parents weren’t super-into the idea of sending $40 overseas in the hope of getting a video game back, and they absolutely weren’t going to share their credit card information online. As such, I became intimately familiar with a lot of “Episode 1s” and not a lot else… so exploring the “Episode 2s” and beyond for some games I liked back in the day might be interesting, for sure.

I’ll think of something. For now, I think it’s time to just play something fun for a bit without thinking about how to turn it into an article or video. Come to me, Donut Dodo…!

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#oneaday Day 175: I picked what to play for #DOScember

As you will know if you’ve been reading for the past few days, I’ve been mulling over what to do for “DOScember” this year on my YouTube channel. I was fairly firmly set on doing another full adventure game playthrough, but hadn’t quite settled on what.

Well, after being recommended the excellent looking The Crimson Diamond, I’m… not going to play that right away. Instead, I’m going to play at least one of the games it cribs extensively from, and a series of adventure games I’ve always wanted to check out but never got around to: the Laura Bow mysteries from Sierra.

I’ve spent a little time familiarising myself with the first game The Colonel’s Bequest this evening, and I think I’ve got a feel for what to expect now. This was a highly experimental game for creator Roberta Williams, and modern commentators tend to agree that it doesn’t quite succeed at what it’s trying to do, but it’s a thoroughly interesting game nonetheless. That sounds like ideal fodder to play, talk about and discuss. Plus, like I say, I’ve wanted to play both Laura Bow games for ages and never made the time to do so.

For the unfamiliar, The Colonel’s Bequest is a mystery-themed adventure game in which you play the 1920s journalism student Laura Bow, who has come along to provide moral support for her friend Lillian while she attends a family reunion of sorts. Said reunion is taking place on the plantation of Colonel Henri Dijon, a former war hero, and is, for maximum creepiness, in the very depths of a bayou in the southern United States.

Upon arriving at the mansion, Laura notes that despite the Colonel announcing that he has left an equal share of his fortune to everyone present (except Laura, obviously), all the family members immediately start being absolute dickheads to one another, and it’s clear that mischief is about to be afoot. What then follows is a curious twist on the usual adventure game formula, where you, as Laura, must wander through the mansion and its grounds, attempting to gather pieces of evidence and knowledge that will allow you to leave the situation 1) alive and 2) with a full understanding of what happened.

The Colonel’s Bequest mostly lacks conventional puzzles, aside from a couple of instances. Instead, the game is mostly about being in the right place at the right time to witness or discover things; the game is split into hour-long Acts, which in turn are split into 15-minute time blocks, and discovering something significant causes time to advance. It’s possible to advance time before gathering important items or speaking with certain characters; indeed, it’s possible to “finish” the game with almost complete obliviousness to what happened around Laura, and you are not penalised for doing so, other than receiving a low “Sleuth” rating in the finale.

What this effectively means is that The Colonel’s Bequest is a game in which taking notes of what happens when, where, how and why is quite important, particularly if you plan to replay the whole thing. Having pieces of evidence or knowledge to ask or tell people about can lead to learning more about what’s going on, and you’ll need to follow all these threads to their various conclusions as much as possible to get the best rating.

I stopped playing for this evening because I don’t want to spoil too much for myself. I suspect my playthrough won’t conclude with me getting the elusive “Super Sleuth” rating at the conclusion of the playthrough, but I’m looking forward to giving it a go anyway. In typical Sierra style, there are some delightful characters involved, along with some fun narration, and this is what I’m really looking forward to: having an excuse to do some silly voices.

Anyway, yeah. So that’s the plan. The Colonel’s Bequest, at the very least. And if I get through that fairly quickly, on to The Dagger of Amon Ra. And if I beat that before December is through, then I’ll look at The Crimson Diamond. After all, I felt like I should probably familiarise myself with the “source material” before jumping into something that is a direct and unashamed homage to it, right?

#oneaday Day 174: Why am I still doing this?

Why am I still doing this? Or, perhaps to the point, why did I start doing this again? This article from Aftermath does a good job of explaining why.

Since the rise of social media, I feel like it’s significantly less likely for someone to have a “personal website”, because everyone is concerned about their “reach” and “engagement”, and if you want both of those things, you want to be on a well-established social media site.

But if you’re more concerned with self-expression and having a space to truly call your own, having your own website is hard to beat. And I think as people become more and more disillusioned with social media — Twitter and Facebook in particular — I think personal websites are going to become more and more important to a wider range of people.

Times have changed a bit, though. The word “blog” seems to have fallen out of wide usage, to be replaced with “newsletter”, this being a result of the assumption that people will sign up to get your posts delivered to them via email, rather than going out of their way to visit your site. However, most of the “newsletters” out there are actually just blogs: people having a space to call their own, writing whatever they feel like at any given moment.

The best blogs… sorry, newsletters… of course have a distinct focus. One of my favourites is Ed Zitron’s Where’s Your Ed At?, which is one of the few sites out there continually taking the garbage of the AI industry and other enshittified parts of the Internet to account for their making life worse for everyone.

And, of course, if you’ve been following me for a while, you’ll know about my own MoeGamer, which is my main video game blog. MoeGamer has now outlived all of the professional, commercial sites I have ever written for, which is a nice feeling. Sure, I don’t update it every day or indeed regularly, but there’s a ton of stuff to read on there, and I’ve made sure all of it is hopefully relevant and interesting, regardless of when you come to it. No racing to get “news” out the door; no rushing games to meet embargoes; just in-depth articles about games that, for one reason or another, I have found it worthwhile to spend some time, effort and words talking about.

This site, though, this is mostly for me. This site is my virtual replacement for the personal diaries I used to write as a teenager, only at no point have I become embarrassed enough about something I’ve written to want to throw the whole thing in the outside bin so it would never be found by anyone, except maybe the dustmen, who I hope had a good laugh about how much I fancied Nikki Rose before flinging the book into landfill. This site is my reminder of at least part of my time on this planet which, for sure, has had some hefty ups and downs over the course of the last 15-20 years or so.

Does it have many people reading it? No. But I’m not doing it for them. I’m doing it for myself — and if anyone happens to stumble across this little corner of the Internet and gets something out of something I’ve written, that’s just a happy bonus.

If you’ve never given this sort of thing a try and you find yourself frustrated at social media, I can highly recommend giving it a go. It’s dead easy to get started with a platform like WordPress or its numerous imitators; in many cases, you can get up and running for free, too.

However you choose to do it, I can assure you of one thing: having a space to truly call your own, in which you can express yourself completely freely, is something that I’ve started to find increasingly important with each passing year. It’s a good thing to have an outlet, for both the good feelings and the bad, and banging out 500-1000 words every so often just about whatever’s on your mind is a healthy habit to get into.

That’s why I’m still doing this. Not to be famous, not to make money, not to get engagement and followers. But because it’s just something I want to do, and which I find is of great benefit to my overall wellbeing. Give it a try!

#oneaday Day 173: Staring down the barrel of #DOScember

#DOScember is the annual celebration of DOS gaming and computing on YouTube and surrounding environments (not to be confused with #DOSember, which is a Twitch thing) and, even though many of the original participants and organisers have become somewhat disillusioned with the whole thing for various reasons, it’s still a fun excuse to bust out some classic MS-DOS games and remind yourself of how good early ’90s PC gaming was.

I did a few videos last #DOScember that I not only enjoyed making, they also performed rather well on my channel. So I’m likely going to spend this December doing primarily DOS gaming stuff on my YouTube channel.

I’m thinking a few things at this point. Firstly, I’m quite keen to do another full adventure game playthrough similar to my The Lost Files of Sherlock Holmes: The Case of the Serrated Scalpel runthrough from last year. (This wasn’t a #DOScember thing, it was just something I felt like doing at the time.) I haven’t yet decided what I should do as yet; on the one hand, playing something I’m already familiar with should mean that I can get through it without getting stuck, but on the other, this might be a prime opportunity to explore a game I’ve never tried for the first time.

The temptation when thinking “I want to play an adventure game” is to jump straight to Sierra and LucasArts, and for sure, they are all solid choices. But there were other folks making adventures at the time, too, and I think the stuff from them is worth celebrating, too. At present, I’m leaning towards something from Access Software, as these are games I’ve never tried, and I know at least some of them (the Tex Murphy games and Countdown spring immediately to mind) are fondly regarded.

When considering that I probably want to play these games as a Let’s Play, I’d also prefer a game that isn’t “talkie”, so I can narrate and do the voices myself. It’s a silly little thing, but I do very much enjoy doing this, so it’s something I’m particularly looking for.

The other thing that I’ll probably do is at least a few “pre-scripted” videos like I did last year. Last time around, I looked at early first-person shooters, games I’d always wanted to try but never had the chance to, and interesting discoveries I’d stumbled across by chance. Those are solid formats, and all of those videos performed well; I’m thinking I might do something other than first-person shooters for the first bit though. Perhaps space sims or flight sims? Those are ripe for exploration, and they’re both genres I used to absolutely love.

Anyway, that’s the plan for #DOScember on the YouTube channel. If you have any good DOS adventure game suggestions (preferably of the point-and-click variety, and preferably not “talkie”, as outlined above) then I’d love to hear ’em. Otherwise, I’ll see you on the channel!

#oneaday Day 172: Things you’re not allowed to pretend you were the first to think of any more

Christmas is coming, and that means yet another year of people who think they are absolutely hilarious for informing you of their sudden revelation that Die Hard is a Christmas movie. Societal norms dictate that you are supposed to laugh at this, pretend you’ve never heard it before and explain, incredulously, that “it really is, isn’t it?” or something along those lines.

As an autistic person, I have the regrettable tendency to spot patterns in everyfuckingthing, particularly human interactions. And, doubly regrettably, I find predictable patterns in human interaction oddly infuriating. One would think these patterns would make communicating with one another easier, particularly for one with the social anxiety that so often goes along with autism.

But no; somehow, I have transcended these “easy wins” of polite conversation and crossed over into the territory where I can see these mindless, predictable exchanges as being utterly meaningless, devoid of any real connection between the participants, instead just relying on quoting something other people have said a million bajillion katillion times over already.

I think my distaste from this at least partly stems from someone I knew at university who, in retrospect, was probably also autistic, as his sole contribution to conversations on numerous occasions was to repeatedly and relentlessly quote Blackadder, devoid of any context whatsoever. It wore me down so much over the course of four years that I was not able to even contemplate watching Blackadder for a good long while afterwards.

It’s not just that, though, as I’m sure even a non-autistic person can understand how that would become exceedingly annoying over the course of four years. I think the thing that frustrates me more than anything is how I’m sure everyone involved in the conversation about how Lisa from Accounts “can’t deal with the word ‘moist'” knows that, in fact, Lisa from Accounts really has no strong feelings about the word “moist” and is instead simply parroting something she heard someone else say that she found quite amusing, perhaps in the hope that someone she likes might flirtatiously start using the word “moist” around her more, giving her ample opportunity to do that thing where people go “oh, no, stop, you big silly” and push someone away while laughing, when they actually just want to shag them.

Or something. I don’t know. The very prospect of behaving like that has always annoyed me sufficiently that I never attempted to carry it through to potential shag territory.

It’s the insincerity of it that bugs me, I think. It’s the very worst kind of small talk; supposed “communication” that is doing nothing but fill silences, but nothing of any real substance is being discussed. People aren’t actually getting to know one another or improving their relationships with one another when they have the “pineapple on pizza is weird, isn’t it?” discussion; they’re simply reading from the hymn sheet in a vain attempt to make themselves look Funny and Cool, because as everyone really tries to drum into you while you’re growing up, Having A Good Sense of Humour is the most important character trait anyone can develop, regardless of situation.

I do not, at this point, wish to imply that I am devoid of a good sense of humour. In fact, I have a fucking excellent sense of humour, thank you very much. Well, okay, I still have pretty much the same sense of humour I did when I was 15 years old, which means I still find farts hilarious, but at least when you let out a particularly salty grunt in front of friends, family or colleagues, you’re taking a bit of a risk under most circumstances. You’re putting yourself out there (quite literally, in terms of gaseous emissions) and, effectively, saying “this is something I find funny” without resorting to material that Michael McIntyre might find “a bit tired”.

Of course, I appreciate that there are doubtless plenty of you out there who think a rancid bottom-burp is the absolute worst thing someone can do in polite company. And that’s fine, too. There are plenty of people I wouldn’t (voluntarily) let off a trouser-trumpet in front of because, despite the autism, I know that it’s not a good idea.

But even so. A fruity guff is something you’ve made yourself, rather than stolen from wherever these inane non-discussions came from in the first place. And thus, if you want to be pals with me, I’d much rather you let rip with a thunderous eggy woofter than even think about telling me how funny it is that Die Hard is “technically” a Christmas movie.

Parp.

#oneaday Day 171: The End of Grisaia

I’ve finally finished The Eden of Grisaia, and, aside from the prologue/after stories and gratuitous H-scenes, which I will probably save for tomorrow given it’s getting late, that means I’ve finally brought this amazing trilogy to a close. Back when I first backed it on Kickstarter, I had been led to believe that it was one (well, three) of the best visual novels ever produced, and having now read the whole thing through from start to finish, I have to concur.

It’s a long read, to be sure — the first game alone is somewhere in the region of 50+ hours, though the subsequent two are closer to the 25-30 hour mark — but it’s one of those instances where the sheer length is kind of important to your sense of involvement with the whole thing; by the time you’ve reached Eden’s dramatic finale, a big part of it all feeling so satisfying is because you’ve previously spent so much time with these characters.

And it’s really interesting how the whole thing is handled. I won’t go into specific details in this post as I’ll probably do a more substantial writeup on MoeGamer in the very near future, but I will talk in general terms.

The Fruit of Grisaia, the first entry in the series, is set up in a typical “bishoujo game” format, where you make a few choices in a common route, then end up on a specific girl’s route to see their story and endings.

The Labyrinth of Grisaia, the second entry, follows this up with a series of non-canonical “After Stories” which assume you’re continuing from the good endings of each girl’s individual route from The Fruit of Grisaia. But then it presents you with what it calls its “Grand Route”, which, very unusually for what has up until this point seemed mostly like a fairly conventional romance visual novel, focuses very much on the protagonist.

Then The Eden of Grisaia picks up where the cliffhanger of Labyrinth left off, only unlocking its “After Story” and a short “Prologue” to the entire shebang after you’ve read the conclusion of the protagonist’s tale.

Grisaia’s protagonist is no ordinary man, you see. He’s not a self-insert for the player, and you are not supposed to “inhabit his role” as you are in some other games. Yuuji, as he is known, is a complex, thoroughly fascinating character, and the way the trilogy gradually drip-feeds you the truth of Yuuji’s full identity and background makes it consistently compelling. At the start of The Fruit of Grisaia, you think he’s a bit of a weirdo who is starting a new life at a school that is also inhabited by a bunch of other weirdoes. Throughout The Labyrinth of Grisaia, you learn a lot about his past life that made him the way he was. And in The Eden of Grisaia, things build to a dramatic conclusion that sees Yuuji confronting his oldest and most feared foe in scenes that would make a Metal Gear game proud.

Yes, y’see, Grisaia’s big secret, if it even is one at this point, is that it’s not a standard school romance series at all, despite what The Fruit of Grisaia might initially lead you to believe. Mind you, with the high drama that occurs in each and every character route in The Fruit of Grisaia — which ranges from violent yakuza shenanigans to the post-traumatic consequences of having survived through a situation that involved, among other things, cannibalism — you’ll barely be halfway through a route before you realise that there is definitely more going on here than might have initially appeared.

The series moves from being a tale about coping and moving on from trauma to some rather thought-provoking ruminations on war and terrorism in the information age. And it does so gradually and naturally; The Eden of Grisaia ends up in a very different place to where The Fruit of Grisaia started, but that just makes the journey feel thoroughly worthwhile. I can highly recommend the experience of reading through the trilogy, and I’ll have more to say on the subject when I’m a little more awake.

#oneaday Day 170: I really don’t care about drama

I’ve been umming and ahhing about whether or not to post this, but if I can’t speak freely on my own fricking website, I think I’ll explode, so I’m going to say it anyway.

I really, really don’t give a damn about any drama surrounding an individual behind a particular project. I’m not saying you have to feel the same way, but I do want to express that I find it continually tiresome and genuinely upsetting when I want to talk about something that I think is cool, but the first response is always “but [individual] worked on it, so it’s bad (and by extension you are bad for having anything positive to say about it)”.

I’m not going to talk about specific cases here, because even doing that has the potential to attract ire towards me, and that’s not what this post is about. What it is about is the sense of frustration I feel that the real people who worked on a project end up getting punished for the actions or behaviour of one individual — and, by extension, the attacks people who express enthusiasm for that project end up suffering also.

It is an unfortunate fact of capitalist life that in order to claw your way up to the top of the heap, you probably have to be a bit of a shithead. The way capitalism works, the way business works; you need to be a bit of a shithead in order to see success. You need to doggedly pursue the things you want to achieve, and you need to defend your commercial interests. This is true for pretty much all industries, whether it’s groceries, tech, publishing or whatever. I defy you to find any company out there with an executive suite that has never done anything you’re not a particular fan of, all in the name of either pursuing their goals or defending their commercial interests.

Trouble is, when the higher-ups at a company do something that is regarded as “bad” or “indefensible”, the real people who suffer are those who are just doing their job underneath. When one CEO behaves poorly, the people who are actually making the products that CEO’s company is known for end up getting punished for it. They could do an absolutely amazing job on whatever they worked on, but still get punished because their boss once did “A Bad Thing”, often several years ago.

This, unfortunately, spreads outwards. Because “(CEO = Bad) = (Company = Bad)”, anyone who then expresses an interest in or an enthusiasm for the products of Company gets yelled at by people who care more about the CEO than the company or the product. And that leaves people feeling like they simply can’t express their enjoyment of something they like just as a product, because of one thing the CEO did half a decade ago.

CEOs should, ideally, not do shit things. It would be lovely if we lived in a world where CEOs did not feel the need to do shit things, be it in the name of pursuing their goals or defending their interests. But we do not. And frankly, I am, I’m afraid, long past giving a shit.

I’ve seen too many pointless, unnecessary arguments and too many strained, even broken friendships over this sort of thing, and it just doesn’t matter. We live in a joyless enough world as it is; we should not be attacking one another over the things we choose to have fun with, so long as those things are not actively hurting someone. And in the specific instances I’m thinking about here, no-one is getting hurt except the folks who worked on them, and the people being attacked for daring to say something positive about them.

That’s all I’m going to say on the subject. I do not want an argument on this, I do not want anyone in the comments trying to tell me I’m wrong for feeling this way. I’m fed up and I’m annoyed, and I am absolutely not in the mood for someone to tell me I’m wrong for feeling that way. So if you’re gearing up to type a comment like that, zip it. I do not want to hear it.

#oneaday Day 169: Analysis paralysis strikes again

I’m having a bit of a “moment” this evening. I want to play something, but my brain is bouncing every which way while I try and actually settle on something to spend some time with. Part of the issue is that I’ve started several things, and when this happens I find myself feeling “obliged” to try and finish those off, but part of me also wants to experience something brand new.

To clarify: all the things I’ve started I absolutely want to finish. But I think I may have inadvertently overwhelmed myself with everything I have on the go already. So indulge me a moment, if you please, while I attempt to make some sense of what my brain is thinking.

Games I have started but not finished (and which I want to finish): Mon-Yu, The Eden of Grisaia, Ys VIII: Lacrimosa of Dana, Yakuza 5, Trails in the Sky Second Chapter, Atelier Lydie & Suelle: The Alchemists and the Mysterious Paintings, Little Busters!, Rance Quest Magnum

Games I am considering replaying for New Game+/DLC etc: Final Fantasy XVI, Final Fantasy XV, Stranger of Paradise: Final Fantasy Origin, Blue Reflection: Second Light

Games I quite fancy starting: Loop8: Summer of Gods (yes, I know it’s supposedly pump but I want to try it anyway), Rhapsody II, Kowloon High School Chronicle, Collar x Malice, Nights of Azure 2: Bride of the New Moon

Games I feel like I “should” start at some point but which seem to get knocked down the priority pile regularly: Final Fantasy IV/V/VI Pixel Remaster

You can hopefully see the issue I have presented myself with: a veritable horde of long RPGs and visual novels, all of which I want to play and finish. And I’ve rather stupidly gone and actually started a bunch of them and left them half-finished, which is where my analysis paralysis is primarily stemming from.

So let’s take those “games in progress” and look a little closer.

Mon-Yu: Dungeon crawler that I started on stream, but have subsequently been playing off-stream, because I’m not sure it’s the best game to “build an audience” with. Has the advantage of being extremely light on the narrative, so it’s a game that, in theory, can be dipped in and out of as mood dictates. Its main disadvantage is that it’s quite tough, so rewards protracted sessions. It’s not super-long, though: I believe there are seven main dungeons and I’m on the fourth. So a bit of determination can probably bash this one out before too long.

The Eden of Grisaia: Visual novel that I’m really enjoying and have been wanting to see the conclusion to for nearly ten years. This is easy enough to fit in whenever, since it requires no decision-making, just concentrating on the unfolding narrative. I am presently about 50% through its main storyline, though there are some other stories that unlock after that is completed. This is something that, perhaps, I can play over lunch instead of watching videos, since I can just stick it on auto and watch it unfold.

Ys VIII: Lacrimosa of Dana: I love Ys, but I started this at the behest of one of my wife’s friends, who was drunk at the time and wanted to see it. This means I’m not particularly invested in my current playthrough, so it’s pretty much at the bottom of my priority list, and I might even just start it over when I come to play it “properly”.

Yakuza 5: I also love Yakuza and am keen to get up to date with the series, but doing so feels a tad overwhelming right now. I am fairly early in this and haven’t gone through much of the plot, but I have been enjoying the side activities, as is the law with Yakuza games.

Trails in the Sky Second Chapter: I had bold plans to play through “all of Trails“, which was a silly thing to promise myself. I enjoyed revisiting the first Trails in the Sky, but Second Chapter’s similarity to it made me feel a little burnt out going straight into it. I’m not far into this at all, but I’m far enough that I’m not sure I’d want to start over.

Atelier Lydie & Suelle: I was doing great on the Atelier MegaFeature over on MoeGamer, but I kind of ground to a halt with this game, not because I wasn’t enjoying it, but at least partly because I started working on Rice Digital and thus didn’t have time to commit to personal projects like this. It has been long enough that I think I can probably start this over when I want to come back to it.

Little Busters!: I took this with me on an overnight trip to work to play out of curiosity, and enjoyed the few chapters I played through, but again, haven’t got far. Again, I think I would probably start this over when the time comes.

Rance Quest Magnum: Another game with Yakuza syndrome: I want to catch up on the series, but doing so is a daunting prospect. This game at least has the benefit that its early hours are relatively light on plot, and its quests are bite-sized, making it a game that you don’t necessarily have to devote hours to in order to get the best out of it.

I’ll also say it’s worth noting that recently I finished Silent Hope, which was one of those games that had been looming over my head for ages, and it felt good to finally knock that one on the head. I also played through 1000xRESIST the other day, and enjoyed that a lot.

Thinking about things sensibly, then, the thing that would make the most sense would be to play The Eden of Grisaia when my brain is alert enough to read, Mon-Yu when I fancy bopping things until numbers come out. I drop Ys VIII, Atelier Lydie & Suelle and Little Busters! without guilt for now, and come back to them fresh and from the beginning when I’m not so overwhelmed. I review how I’m feeling after finishing either Mon-Yu or The Eden of Grisaia (or both) and consider whether to pick up where I left off in either Yakuza 5 or Trails in the Sky Second Chapter at that point — in other words, defer that decision until one or two things are checked off.

That sounds good, right? Okay, The Eden of Grisaia it is for now, then.

#oneaday Day 168: On The Spectrum

I got that new Spectrum. I was going to call it a Spectrum Mini, but it really isn’t — it’s a well-crafted replica of the original 48K Speccy, rubber keys and all, only it has stuff like HDMI out, USB ports and suchlike.

Like TheC64 Mini/Maxi, TheA500 Mini and The400 Mini, it’s an emulation box with a bunch of built-in games (48 this time) and the ability to load your own stuff from USB.

As I type this, a vast collection of Spectrum games and demos are copying themselves to a USB stick, so I haven’t had time to try that side of things today. I have had a play with some of the built-in games, though, and they’re a really interesting mix.

There’s expected stuff like Manic Miner and Skool Daze — though no Jet Set Willy, interestingly — but of particular note is the selection of modern indies that are included. There’s some really cool stuff in there, including a 3D platformer called Cosmic Payback and and light-based puzzler called Tenebra, both of which I’ve had some fun with today.

The Spectrum is not a system I know well at all, having grown up an Atari boy. So I’m thinking I may chronicle some of my explorations and discoveries on YouTube. While I’m on, I’ve never really covered the built-in games on TheC64 and TheA500 Mini either, so between those three I think they’ll make some nice companion pieces to my 400 Mini playlist and all the other Atari stuff I’ve done.

These systems were bitter rivals back in the day, but today it’s easy to be in a position where you can appreciate all of them. And you should, because they all have unique charms, for sure.

Anyway, that’s a loose plan in place that I’ll likely start on tomorrow. For now, sleep beckons!

#oneaday Day 167: What happened to plain ol’ fantasy?

This is a discussion I’ve had a few times on Discord of late, but I don’t think I’ve mentioned it here. So, being in need of something to write for today, I thought I’d ponder it here.

I grew up being rather fond of fantasy — you know, swords, magic, elves, goblins, that sort of thing. I attribute this primarily to my brother’s girlfriend of his teenage years introducing me to HeroQuest and the Elric of Melnibone role-playing game; I never played the latter but I did play a fair few sessions of the former, and even managed to convince my parents to get me Advanced Heroquest by Games Workshop for one birthday, which I think has successfully hit the table maybe two or three times in my entire life. (Lucky it has solid solo rules!)

Similarly, one (well, two, technically, I guess) of my favourite book series growing up was David Eddings’ Belgariad/Malloreon cycle, which chronicles the rise of young farm boy Garion into a god-slaying hero and powerful sorcerer. Also of note was Douglas Hill’s Blade of the Poisoner and its sequel Master of Fiends, both of which were really for kids, but which I enjoyed and re-read numerous times in my youth.

What do all the above have in common? They’re all simple, straightforward, old-fashioned fantasy. I add those qualifiers because I feel we don’t get a lot of simple, straightforward, old-fashioned fantasy any more. We get a shitload of “dark fantasy”, sure, and we also get a lot of “ironic parody fantasy”. But just straightforward, simple fantasy? That feels like a dying breed.

To clarify what I mean by these terms: by “dark fantasy” I mean a world where everyone is either miserable or fucking (often simultaneously), the streets are made of mud and the dwarves say “fuck” a lot. By “ironic parody fantasy” I mean “teeheehee, the heroes of this fantasy world know what a ‘level’ is and talk like they’re in a Marvel movie!”.

Both of these have their appeal — they must do, otherwise there wouldn’t be so fucking many of both of them — but I feel we’ve reached a point where “subverting the expectations of the fantasy genre” is now more of a cliché than… the fantasy genre itself. I hunger for a good old-fashioned tale of swords and sorcery where no-one says “well, that happened” or “fuck”, and which culminates in the plucky young hero, who came from humble beginnings, punching out some sort of god-like entity.

It doesn’t even feel like we get this in video games much any more. Final Fantasy has very much gone down the “dark fantasy” route in more recent installments and I think that has been a positive move for the series — Final Fantasy XVI and Stranger of Paradise: Final Fantasy Origin are particular highlights from recent memory — and a lot of anime-style RPGs play up the comedic angle somewhat. There’s nothing wrong with either of these things — I enjoy both when I’m in the mood for them — but sometimes you just want something a bit more… straightforward, I guess?

I’m intrigued to try out Metaphor: ReFantazio at some indefinite point in the future, though I suspect that veers towards “dark fantasy”, and I have several dungeon crawlers waiting in the wings that might fit the bill.

I’m not mad about this or anything — trends and tastes change, after all — but I just think it might be nice if we could see a bit more in the way of old-school barbarians-in-loincloths-and-wizards-with-beards fantasy. It was a defining influence on me growing up, and it would be nice to revisit that.