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1108: Countdown to Internet

Page_1We finally get Proper Internet installed in our new flat tomorrow. If you are, at this point, scratching your head and pondering how on Earth I am writing this post when I do not have Proper Internet installed in our new flat already, fortunate circumstances meant that our new neighbours have BT as their service provider and thus have part of their bandwidth set aside as a public hotspot. Because we’re also with BT, it means that we’re able to make use of this hotspot for free.

You may think that sounds ideal, and it’s certainly been better than nothing — without it I’d have spent about a billion pounds on working from coffee shops by now, or have struggled on with a data-capped 3G dongle — but it’s had its share of annoyances. The main issue is that our neighbours’ router is just slightly too far away for a reliable connection on devices like the iPhone and iPad — it’s been fine on my laptop, but my Mac steadfastly refuses to stay connected for more than five minutes at a time. Since my day job requires me to download a lot of stuff from the App Store, I need my phone to have a reliable connection, because apps over a certain size are impossible to download over a mobile data connection — and besides, my mobile data connection has a bandwidth cap, too, which I hit last billing month thanks to the very issues I’m describing here.

The other irritant is the hotspot’s “fair use policy”, which means that “unlimited” use is, in fact, not unlimited at all — instead, once you hit a certain number of minutes used on your account (cumulative between all devices which have logged in using those details) you get put in a special Naughty Corner for people who use the Internet too much, and disconnected without warning every half an hour. This is especially infuriating if you’ve been typing an article into a web-based content management system such as WordPress, idly hit Publish without remembering to check if the connection is still active and promptly run the risk of losing all your work. (Fortunately, Chrome seems to cache the body of your text when this happens, but tends to lose headlines, tags and that sort of thing.) I have taken to both copying the entire body of my text before publishing and opening a new tab to any old site — usually Facebook, since I only have to type the letter “F” into the address bar in Chrome for it to suggest that to me and it loads quickly — just to make sure the connection hasn’t gone tits-up.

It could, of course, be significantly worse. I’ve been re-reading some old issues of PC Zone recently, and they hail from the pre-broadband days when getting unlimited Internet access via your phone line was a new and exciting thing, but most people were struggling on with 0845 numbers that charged them the same rate as a local phone call while they were online. The letters page of one issue features a letter from someone who wished that multiplayer-focused games would go away — not for the same reason people say this today (oversaturation) but because, in the UK at least, it was a relative minority of people who could play these games at a practical speed and without their phone bill going through the roof.

I remember vividly trying to get a two-player game of Quake going via a direct modem connection a while back, and it was just impossible to do so. And all the while I was trying to get this going, the phone line was tied up and pissing off my parents. (You young ‘uns don’t know you’re born, I tellsya.) We got direct-connect games of Command and Conquer and Red Alert going a few times, but Quake continually eluded us. It wasn’t until I got to university and managed to figure out a way to use our free phone calls between rooms in our hall of residence to fake a Windows network connection that I was able to play a PC-based first-person shooter against another person for the first time. (Not coincidentally, those days spent playing Half-Life against my flatmates Sam and Chris are some of my fondest gaming memories of all time.)

Still, as I say… Proper Internet tomorrow. You don’t realise how much you miss it until it’s not there. It’s such a big part of everyone’s daily life now that the fact we used to only be able to use the Internet for short periods of time at specific times of day (phone calls were cheaper after 6pm!) is all but unthinkable. Nowadays, I’m bitching about the fact I can’t watch Netflix and Crunchyroll over breakfast.

The perils of living in The Future, I guess.

#oneaday Day 535: Updated My Journal

As I sit here on my friend Tim’s spare bed (which just a few short moments ago had the entirety of Helm’s Deep atop it) typing this entry using a piece of software that runs on a computer several thousand miles away from the tiny computer that I’m actually pressing the keys on which has no physical connection to this thing we call “the Internet”, I’m reminded, as I often am, of how much things have changed.

I’m not that old — I’m thirty and, if not proud then certainly “grudgingly accepting” — but I still find the amount of progress since I was a kid to be fairly astonishing when you think about it. Take what I’m doing right now — writing a blog post — and rewind it some fifteen-plus years. I vividly recall as a youngling, early-ish in my secondary school career, writing a secret diary, inspired by Adrian Mole. Said diary was in a really nice part leather-bound volume that said “journal” on the spine and had nice paper. My first entry was about my family’s visit to the National Stone Centre, in retrospect possibly the dullest way I could have possibly started a secret diary.

Over time, though, my writing evolved. I wasn’t writing for anyone in particular, but more just to get thoughts out of my head when there wasn’t anyone handy to share and discuss them with — or if they were thoughts that I didn’t particularly want to share and discuss with people. In some senses it was like a form of therapy, where I could discuss anything I wanted with someone who wouldn’t judge what I was saying, and would simply respond with an unspoken “tell me more” for as long as it had empty pages. My journal became less about “Today I went to the National Stone Centre and we saw lots of stones” and more about “I’ve been thinking about [girls/school/bullies/life] and this is what I feel about it”.

I took to scripting fantasy conversations for a while, particularly when it came to talking to girls, because at least in the pages of my diary I stood a chance with Nikki, the girl with the finest boobs and legs in the whole school orchestra. In reality — well, I never quite found out whether or not I stood a chance with her, but given the general standard of guys she went out with, I’m not sure my greasy-and-crap-haired zit-faced teenage self would have stood up particularly well, however much better at playing the clarinet I was than her other boyfriends.

On one memorable occasion, I recall doing a lengthy post-mortem of an encounter with a girl I liked when my friends pretty much forced me to tell her that I liked her. She turned me down, of course, but the fact I’d actually gone through with it was immensely satisfying — so much so that I recall drawing diagrams of how the event had actually gone — where I was, where my friends were (doubtless watching and laughing at me making a tit of myself) and where she was.

In retrospect, it was perhaps a bit creepy, which is probably why one day I took a look at everything I had written, became hideously embarrassed by the whole thing and discreetly threw the by then half-full book out into the trash, never to be seen again. I often wonder what happened to it, and occasionally wondered if a bin man might have come across it and had a good giggle at my teenage lameness.

The world’s different now, though, and the closest people come to a “secret” these days is posting passive-aggressive tweets and Facebook statuses. I still write — every day, as you’ve doubtless noticed. Sometimes the things I write are still therapeutic and a way of getting thoughts out of my head that are difficult to vocalise, and sometimes it’s just stupid shit that I feel like rambling on about.

The difference now is that after 535 days, I’m not ashamed of a bit of it. Sure, some of it probably only has any meaning to me and me alone, but everything I’ve written here has some sort of meaning and memory attached to it. Which is why you won’t find me ever throwing this blog out in the trash like my teenage secret diary. We are the sum of our memories and experiences, for better or worse, and sometimes it’s good to look back and see how you got to where you are now — and where you might be headed in the future.

The future’s not yet written, as everyone knows. But day by day it’ll reveal itself, leading us ever onward to the end of one chapter and the start of the next.