When I awoke again, my body ached all over, like I’d been running for miles and then stopped to lift some heavy weights. Of course, my long journey had been taxing my body somewhat, but I had been making a point of stopping to rest on a regular basis. This was different. I knew I’d slept deeply, but I felt almost as exhausted now that I’d woken up as when I succumbed to sleep.

I’d left the area shortly afterwards. I had no desire to be around the wreckage that had resulted from my… episode. Seeing the cracked earth and the charred surroundings only served to remind me that I had no idea how I was causing these incidents — and it must have been me, for there was no other explanation occurring to me at this time.

As I walked, my mind wandered off in a completely different direction. The monotonous scenery around me ceased to matter. The hypnotic sound of my footsteps on the broken concrete distracted me, and my attention faltered.

I tripped and fell on a loose fragment of road surface. I felt myself going — it was as if everything was suddenly depicted in slow motion. I saw the ground coming up to meet my face and braced myself for an impact, screwing my eyes up tight so as not to see the spray of blood from whichever part of my face hit the floor first.

It never came. I opened my eyes — at least, I thought I did — and found myself in total blackness. Was I dead? I didn’t think so, because I was pretty sure that I wouldn’t be able to have this conversation with myself if I was truly dead. But I certainly wasn’t where I should be — lying face down on the road, possibly bleeding quite badly.

I reached up and touched my face with my hand. It was still there. I was still human. It was just pitch black.

I reached out with my hands to feel in all directions and work out where I was, but there were no clues. It was just an apparently huge, lightless, silent, empty space.

No, not silent, for there was some sound off in the distance. I couldn’t tell what it was, but it sounded almost like… people talking? That couldn’t be right, could it?

I tried to determine where the sound was coming from, and started walking towards it. My feet made no sounds on the floor — if indeed there was one — but a slight breeze as I walked convinced me that I was, in fact, moving somewhere. But where?

The voices didn’t seem to get any closer. They just sounded like mumbling, like they were discussing something behind a wall. The tone of them was very low and, I assumed, serious, for there was no sound of anything like laughter. I picked out at least three different people — two male, one female, but try as I might, there was no way to make the sound any clearer. It was so frustrating — here, potentially, was the answers I’d been seeking, and I couldn’t reach them.

There was a sudden flash of light and a loud sound of rushing wind, and suddenly I was back where I had been on the road. I stumbled over the crack again, but this time managed to catch myself before I fell, breaking briefly into a comical half-controlled jog.

I looked around at the dry wastes all around me, at the sun high in the sky and the road steadfastly extending off into the distance. I wasn’t sure I was actually going anywhere — the scenery had been nigh-on identical for the past few hours, and it felt like I was just walking along the same stretch of road over and over again.

As the sun passed overhead and started its inexorable descent down towards the opposite horizon, I saw something ahead. Buildings. There was what looked like a bridge over the road in the distance, and an intact, blue sign before it. “Services,” it said, along with a series of symbols which looked familiar but which my mind couldn’t decode at this time. A narrow track led off the wide road I was following, and I assumed that this led to the “services” mentioned on the sign, though I wasn’t sure what I’d find there.

What I discovered appeared to be a large car parking area, with a large number of burnt-out vehicles. The concrete floor seemed to be covered with patches of familiar-looking dust, and I tried not to think about what had happened to Annie, because I had the sneaking suspicion that these dust piles had once been people, just like her.

At the far end of the car park was a large, boxy building. Its windows were smashed, but it looked otherwise structurally reasonably sound. Its front doors had obviously once been made from glass, but now they were nothing but large frames with a few shards in the corners. I stepped through one of them, taking care not to cut myself on the sharp spikes, and entered the building.

It was dark inside, and smelled musty. I’d entered a large, open indoor plaza which had been divided into several areas — almost like smaller buildings inside the larger one. The ceiling in one corner of the plaza had collapsed, but the rest looked safe enough for now.

I walked through the open area of the plaza, which was filled with upturned tables and chairs, scattered around the area haphazardly. I headed towards one of the “building within a building” areas which looked like it might once have been some kind of shop — there were shelves, certainly, and some of them looked like they might still be stocked. With what, though, I didn’t know until I got there.

Inside, it was a mess, but it did look like I might be able to scavenge some supplies at least. While a great deal of the food that had been scattered from a tipped-over cabinet looked like it was inedible and mouldy, my mind was drawn to a few gold-coloured tins which, although dented, looked like they might contain something which could survive a little longer.

I picked one up and fiddled with the plastic fastening until the lid came off. Inside were a number of brightly-colored, hard crystals with some sort of white powder over them. A pleasant smell was emanating from them, so I picked one up and eyed it curiously. The scent of fruit drifted into my nostrils, so I put the sweet into my mouth.

The strong flavour started at the tip of my tongue and worked its way all through my taste buds. My mouth filled with saliva at the sweetness of it. It tasted good. I rolled it around in my mouth for some time — its hardness suggested that attempting to bite into it might not be a great idea — and suddenly I found myself remembering something.

There was the house again. The girl — younger, this time, and with two older people — was getting into a car, and she was motioning for me to join her. I did so — I didn’t have a choice in the matter — and the two older people in the front — her parents? — drove out of the driveway to the house and started down the road. The girl pulled out a small, golden tin much like the one I’d been holding in my hands a moment before and–

I felt the pain starting again. If I didn’t get out of here right now, I was likely to be in big trouble.

I’d continued walking down the long, wide road. According to the map, it looked like the most direct route to get where I was going, though there weren’t many places to hide if the weather were to turn unpleasant. Fortunately, in the days I’d been travelling — I’d lost count — it hadn’t as yet, but it was always a possibility.

The road extended off into the distance, mostly straight, veering a little to the right as it approached the horizon. This part of the world was quite flat, and the scenery was becoming rather monotonous. I decided to take a short break and get something to eat.

I sat down and rummaged in my pack for what supplies I had left. The tinned food I had had been in perfectly edible condition so far, but I was starting to get a little low on it. I’d need to resupply soon.

I cracked open an unmarked can which turned out to be filled with baked beans. While eating them cold wasn’t the most pleasant thing, I didn’t have the means of easily making a fire with me — and besides, over the course of this journey, I’d become accustomed to eating food just “as is”. With a smile, I wondered if I’d ever been a fussy eater in the past — if so, this situation would be working wonders for it. If the only thing you have to eat is that which is right in front of you, that’s what you eat.

As I sat by the edge of the road, watching the few wisps of cloud in the otherwise blue sky passing by, my thoughts turned inward, as they often did when I stopped and contemplated. I was no closer to understanding who I was or why I was making this journey, but I still had a lingering sense that the truth was being wilfully withheld from me.

That was ridiculous, of course, since there was no-one around to “withhold” anything except me. Perhaps I was repressing a memory, and doing so had become such second nature that it was now automatic, instinctive.

I didn’t want to repress it any longer, however. I wanted to know. My mind evidently had other ideas.

I sighed and finished off the last of the beans. The most basic of foods tasted great while out on the road, though I wondered if I’d ever eat a full meal again. I tossed the can aside and gazed into the middle distance. The light breeze in the air was relaxing.

I closed my eyes for a moment and attempted to clear my mind of all distractions — to sit down and have a quiet chat with myself over what it was that was really going on.

All was darkness for a short while, the only sound the wind rustling the dry grass beside the road. As I concentrated deeply, inwardly, however, it was as if a plume of smoke was slowly clearing and gradually coming into focus.

There was the house again, but this time it was different. I couldn’t hear anything this time, there was no colour, and I didn’t feel like I was in control like I was in the dream. I felt myself drawn towards the door of the house, saw my hand reach out and open it and enter a small but homely living room. Sitting on the floor, her elbows on a coffee table and her head in her hands, was a woman. She had long, flame-red hair — the only colour in this otherwise monochromatic image — and was beautiful. I knew her. I knew her well. I reached out and touched her on the shoulder and–

My eyes snapped open. I felt a pain in my head as if someone had jammed a poker through it. I screamed, and it felt like the earth shook. The pain didn’t subside, even as my cries of anguish echoed through the empty landscape. My thoughts were confused, jumbled, mangled, as if someone had grabbed my brain and was wringing it out. I had no control over myself, save to cry out and scream.

My vision blurred and I couldn’t see what was happening. I tried to get to my feet, but couldn’t move. I felt the ground cracking beneath me, the earth shaking and shattering. I gritted my teeth and tried to break through the pain, but I couldn’t. It was too much. It was unlike anything I’d ever experienced, and was in no hurry to ever experience again afterwards. There was such power behind the pain, such fury. But it didn’t want to kill me. It wanted me to hurt.

I fell prone on the floor and passed out from the horrific sensations. I don’t know how long I slept, but when I woke, it was dark. I knew before I looked up from the floor that it had happened again — destruction, devastation, chaos born from anger. But why?

It had happened as soon as the memory — for that must have been one — was making itself clear. Answers lay within that memory, but I was convinced now, more than ever, that there was something beyond my control, powerful beyond my wildest imagination, stopping me from accessing it.

But what? And how? I didn’t know, but even as the throbbing in my skull slowly subsided, I resolved to get to the bottom of this — to solve the mystery of my memories and figure out just what it was that had occurred to turn this world of ours into a wasteland, devoid of human life — and what it had to do with me.

I closed my eyes again and sank into sleep. This time, dreams did not come as slumber claimed me, only much-needed peace.

The floorboards creak beneath my bare feet, just like they always used to. The third stair up had made that same loud noise that always meant it was impossible to sneak up or downstairs unless you hopped over it — my father always used to joke that the third stair up was better than any burglar alarm.

The house is both familiar and alien all at once. Everything is exactly as I remembered it from the day I left, but there’s a curious emptiness, too — like I’m walking around inside a photograph. I don’t dare touch anything for fear that my hands might pass straight through it and shatter the illusion. For all the unease I feel wandering around this spectre from my past, I am also enjoying being somewhere that isn’t falling down.

It occurs to me that the empty sensation I am feeling is due to the complete lack of other life in the house. There are no humans — why would there be? But there is no other life either — no spiders spinning cobwebs in forgotten corners of the room (the bookcases in the lounge always seemed to attract them), no buzzing flies, no moths, nothing at all. The strange, eerie silence that had gripped the world since “it” happened is here too, and somehow it seems more noticeable here. There needs to be noise. I’d always hated silence. It felt oppressive, desperate to be filled, but my family had always been one to just sit in peace with one another, happy to be in each other’s company. Except for me. Silence made me feel guilty.

I walk through the doorway into my old room and there it is — bare walls, unlike when I’d been a child, for before I left I’d cleaned it from top to bottom. It was a cathartic experience that helped me deal with the death of the two people I loved more than anyone else in the world. I knew I wasn’t coming back, so I didn’t see the point of leaving behind traces of my past life.

I tentatively walk over to the bed and move to sit on it. My bare behind touches the uncovered mattress and it feels how I remember it. More to the point, I don’t fall through, nor does it suddenly disappear like a mirage. This bed is here.

I’m not sure what I should do. There’s not much I can do in my current state, disrobed and possessionless as I am. I close my eyes for a moment and picture him again. If only he were here. If only I could see him again, then I could be happy. I wouldn’t need to do anything for I could  just sink into his arms, curl up and sleep forever.

But he isn’t here, and I have to deal with that. I have no-one to rely on but myself right now, and sitting around isn’t going to help with survival. My first priority is to find some clothes — I’m not so concerned about my own modesty if there’s no-one around to see me, but I am a little worried about getting cold. Although the house appears intact, there’s no evidence that any of the electrical devices are working, meaning that there’d be no way to heat the place up if it did happen to get cold.

I glance over to my old wardrobe, built into the wall. It’s a long shot, I know, but I figure I’ll try it. I get up, the mattress springing back into shape now my weight has left it, and walk over to the wooden doors. My hand touches the handle and hesitates for a moment. I feel a slight dizziness and a feeling of warmth that seems to sweep through my whole body, but as suddenly as it appeared, it is gone again. Shaking my head, I open the door to see the last thing I expected: my favourite summer dress. While wearing it without underwear isn’t the most decent thing in the world, I figure it’s better than nothing, so I slip it over my head and pass my arms through the straps. I glance over at the full-length mirror on the wall, right where it should be, and admire myself. I give a little twirl and giggle as the dress does that “billowing” thing that makes me love it so much.

I’m hungry. Surely it’s too much to hope that a similar situation will arise with the kitchen cupboards, but it’s all I’ve got at the moment. I walk downstairs, smiling as the third stair creaks at my passing again, and head into the kitchen. It always seemed so small, but my mother could work wonders in here. I didn’t know how she did it. For years I lived in a flat with a kitchen bigger than this and always found myself running out of room. Yet my mother could whip up an incredible meal with the minimum of effort.

Not today, though; as expected, the cupboards are bare. Nothing to eat here. My stomach gives a low growl in protest.

I walk out of the back door again and into the garden. I find myself wondering if I’ll see young me and my mother again, but there is no sign of them. I begin to think I may have imagined them.

I wander towards the apple tree at the edge of the garden; here, the green grass is fading to the more familiar brown, and the tree itself looks long-dead. I know that there’s no hope of finding anything to eat on a tree quite so comprehensively devoid of life, but something draws me here.

I feel the strange dizziness and warmth again. It lingers this time, and becomes so disorienting that I feel myself stumble and fall to the ground, but it doesn’t hurt. I feel like I’m falling onto cotton wool. I close my eyes and smile — the sensation isn’t unpleasant, but the sudden onset of it is confusing and a little troubling. The fleeting doubt is brushed aside from my mind as the feeling fades again, and I open my eyes. I’m not lying on cotton wool, I’m lying face-down on the green grass, just like I should be, given that I just fell over.

Something strikes me on the back of the head quite hard. It hurts and makes my ears ring, and I feel it drop to the floor to the right of me. Did someone throw something at me?

Still a little dizzy, I don’t trust myself to stand up yet, so I fumble around with my hand until I feel the object that struck me. It’s smooth and round. I grasp it in my hand and bring it around in front of me, raising my head to look ahead of me instead of gazing into the grassy floor.

It’s an apple.

After spending some time attempting to decipher the road map and comparing it to the few battered roadsigns I could find around the way, I came to the conclusion that the address I’d found in Annie’s phone was hundreds of miles away. I had a very long journey ahead of me, it seemed, but given the total lack of other people around, I didn’t see anything better to do. My pack was filled with supplies, and if where I had been still held a few pockets from which usable equipment and food could be salvaged, surely other places along the way would, too.

I was out on the open road by now. The cracked concrete surface gave me something to concentrate on amid the emptiness of the parched, dead grass all around. The road I was following had obviously once been a main route, as it was wide and seemingly well signposted — though most of these signposts had been charred, bent, or in some cases apparently torn in half. With an occasional glance at the map, however, I determined that I was probably moving in the right direction. At least I hoped I was.

My mind kept wandering to the strange incident outside the petrol station. The dream hadn’t returned again, but I was still chilled as I remembered waking up from the rage-filled chaos and my surroundings not being as I had left them. Part of me still wondered if I had been responsible for the destruction of that area — and if I had had anything to do with the state of the world as it was now. It didn’t make any sense, though. Thinking rationally right now, I had no desire to destroy anything or hurt anyone, so logically it couldn’t possibly have been me, right? This was also leaving aside the fact that I was, as far as I remembered, anyway, just an ordinary human being. Ordinary human beings might shout and scream when they get angry, not level an entire city block.

I tried to shake off the grim thoughts as I continued walking. An odd melody popped into my head out of nowhere, and I found myself humming it. After a few moments, I suddenly heard myself and began to laugh at the sheer incongruity of humming such a happy, cheerful tune in such a desolate environment. It was better than the alternative, however.

There was something else too, though — a flash of memory. I couldn’t pin down what it was, but it was there, and it seemed like it wanted to emerge. But perhaps not yet. I hummed the melody again, and a smile broke across my face. Perhaps it wasn’t worth getting upset. Perhaps over the next hill I’d find lush green grass and a town that didn’t lie in ruins.

Hours later, the light was fading and I hadn’t come across either green grass or an intact town, but my legs were aching and my feet were sore. I’d made it onto what looked like an even more major road, with two carriageways running parallel to one another, and a tendency to run in a long, straight line, even if that meant cutting right through the middle of a hill rather than going around it. There wasn’t any sign of civilisation nearby, so I decided to make camp at the side of the road, up against a concrete wall built into one such hill cutting. It was still warm, even though night was falling, and I was so tired.

I fell asleep almost as soon as I sat down and leaned up against the wall. My eyelids drooped and I felt myself drifting out of consciousness.

For a moment, I was disoriented. I wasn’t where I thought I was. There was sunlight and a gentle breeze, and the smell of cut grass. And sounds — people, cars, the distant clatter of the railway line. This place felt familiar.

Before me was a rustic-looking old house that looked like it had been standing for centuries. It was still in good condition, though, and didn’t show any signs of the damage and destruction evident everywhere else I’d seen.

There was a curious, ethereal quality to the sunlight as I looked around, like it wasn’t quite real. Then it occurred to me: I was dreaming. But I didn’t want to wake up. This was a pleasant, happy place. This was a safe place. This was far from the sense of sadness, sorrow and loss I felt when I looked at the wasteland around me as I walked. This was… home? No, that didn’t feel quite right, but it was still important.

I heard the sound of a girl giggling inside the house and moved to hide myself, but there was nowhere to go. She came out into the garden, for that was where I stood, but she looked right through me, her gaze lingering for a moment as if she knew something was there but she couldn’t quite work out what it was… or believe in it.

“Hello,” I said, but if she heard, she didn’t show it, for before long she was scampering off to the other end of the garden where an older woman — presumably her mother? — was laying something down on an outdoor table. It was a picturesque scene of familial bliss… until it happened.

The sky turned red — a deep, threatening red, the colour of blood. The earth shook, and a giant crack split the garden in twain, the outdoor table and its contents falling down into darkness. The girl screamed and the mother looked around herself, panicked. There was a huge roar that seemed to make the whole world tremble.

Then I woke up, drenched in sweat. It was dark, and the wall against which I was leaning was still standing. This was not the same as last time, but something in that was important. And something was trying to keep me from working out what it was.

I float through space. At least I think it’s space. It’s a dark, empty void completely free of light, air and sound. I’m not sure how long I’ve been here or even if I’m here at all. I could be dead, for all I know. But then, surely, I wouldn’t be aware of my existence, I’d just be dead.

I was brought up to be a spiritual sort of person but deep down I always figured it to be complete nonsense. There couldn’t be such a thing as an afterlife. There was nothing whatsoever rational to suggest that there was some sort of alternate dimension between what we knew as “existence” and total oblivion. You were alive, or you were dead. It was as simple as that.

Except now I’m not so sure. I certainly can’t feel my body or anything in the world, but I sure can feel my… what? Soul? Self?

Perhaps I’m just asleep. Dreaming. That would be a rational explanation for all this. Perhaps in all the chaos which ensued when “it” happened, I knocked my head and fell unconscious. Given what was going on, though, I’d be absolutely astonished if I turned out to be alive. I remember things collapsing, clouds of dust, screams of terror suddenly cut short in a manner that was somehow more horrific than if they’d continued.

And so much noise. That constant low rumbling as the very ground shook beneath us. The roars of rage and fury. No-one knew where the anger was coming from, but we sure as hell knew that it was going to be the end of us. The devastation had spread gradually, starting with a small village in the middle of nowhere and gradually spreading until it had engulfed everywhere we knew and once held dear. Lush green grass became brittle and brown, precisely-designed buildings came tumbling down, freshly-paved streets cracked and broke.

At the end of it all, nothing but the wasteland. Our glorious country — possibly even the world — utterly destroyed. And for what? There was still no easy answer.

Suddenly, I’m aware of a faint green light from out of the corner of my field of vision — I hesitate to say “eyes” because I’m not sure I have them. I turn to face it and it approaches rapidly — or perhaps I float towards it. Before long, I am engulfed in the light. It feels warm, and pure, and soft, and filled with love. The feelings it invokes in me are indescribably joyful.

Images flash before my eyes. Split-second views of the day “it” happened. Faces of loved ones, now probably lost. One image lingers slightly longer than the others — it’s him. I miss him so much. I try to call out, but no sound comes out in the void, but I sense the light understands what I’m trying to do, so I don’t feel I have to try it again.

The light brightens for a moment, dazzling me with its intensity, then fades to nothingness. I am back in the darkness. But something is different. There’s… a sound. And a feeling. A cold, hard feeling. On my… face?

I open my eyes, for now I have them. In front of my face is a solid, smooth, cold surface. I raise my head a little and look up. I’m lying on a stone floor outside a small, ruined building. It looks familiar somehow, but it takes a moment for me to realise why.

Of course. It’s the house where we used to play together as children, and onward grew up until young adults. The house where we confessed our true feelings to one another, shared our first kiss, and were first intimate with one another. The house in which I lived until my parents died, and I was forced to go out into the world and make it on my own.

It has been many years since I have seen this house, and something had not been kind to it. I don’t know if it was age or the destruction wrought by “it”, but to see my memories laid out before me, a crumbling ruin, is profoundly moving.

I push off the ground with my hands and get unsteadily to my feet. I feel the gentle breeze of the day over my whole body, and I suddenly realise I am nude. Instinctively covering myself as best as I can with my arms and hands, I frantically look around for something to wear and anyone who might be looking, but find neither. All is eerily quiet. The horrific sounds of the devastation had ceased. Was it over?

I look back at the house and frown. If I look at it at the right angle, it almost looked like…

There’s a giggling sound. My eyes widen as a girl skips out into the garden. She seems oblivious to my presence. It doesn’t take me long to recognise her.

It’s me. Me aged about seven years old, to be precise. I was so carefree back then and never had any idea of the awful future in store for me.

From around the corner comes my mother. She gestures to seven year old me and says something to her that I can’t quite hear. The two of them go inside the house.

I gasp. Before my eyes, the house is whole again. Tentatively walking towards it, I reach out and touch the aged stones of the wall, and they’re real. I walk around to the back of the house, where young me and my mother disappeared, and sure enough, there is the door.

I put my hand on the handle and hesitate for a moment. While for a few moments, the atmosphere had been filled with life thanks to the incessant giggling of young me, now there’s a chilling sense of emptiness. I know that my young self and my mother couldn’t possibly be here, that it must have been some sort of hallucination, but it still saddens me a little — and that doesn’t explain the house, which had been an uninhabitable ruin just minutes before.

I push down on the handle. The door is unlocked, and creaks in that old, familiar way as I open it and step into my childhood home for the first time in over twenty years.

I’m not sure how long I slept, but unlike when I’d awoken previously, this time I felt somewhat refreshed. The building I was in was still almost completely pitch dark, but I could see a glimmer of light coming in from around the doorframe.

I pulled open the door and let in the daylight. The sun was up and the sky was blue, with barely any clouds to be seen. A light breeze was blowing, but it was clear that today was going to be a warm day.

I considered stepping out into the heat of the day, but paused for a moment on the threshold before turning back into the building to investigate further. I’m not sure what made me do this — maybe I caught a glimpse of something, maybe I heard something, perhaps it was just an irrational feeling I had, without any reasonable explanation. But I felt it was important. There was something here.

Even with the light of the day coming in through the front door, the corridor I was in was still dark. I had to feel my way along until I came to a staircase leading upwards. I tentatively placed a foot on the first step — it creaked, but it seemed to bear my weight just fine. Little by little, I gingerly crept up the stairs, hoping with each movement that I wouldn’t find the one rotten board and fall through, causing myself injury.

When I made it to the top, I breathed a sigh of relief. It was still dark, but I could see a hint of light coming from somewhere — under a door, perhaps? I felt my way through the oppressive darkness towards the light and fumbled around on the wall. It was indeed a door, and if I could just find the handle I could–

My hand hit the sweet spot unexpectedly and pushed the door open a little harder than I’d intended. I stumbled forwards and the door banged against something inside the room. Light was coming in through a window in the room, bringing some much-needed illumination to the gloom of the rest of the building.

Much of the room was still bathed in shadow but I could see enough to tell that it was a bedroom. A metal-framed bed stood to one side, its covers messed up. I mentally kicked myself for not investigating the building further and finding somewhere more comfortable than the hard floor of the corridor to rest, but it was too late now.

I quickly retracted my self-beratement when I realised that the rucked-up covers were not just rucked-up covers, but that there was something underneath them. Hands trembling with anticipation at what I might find, I slowly pulled back the duvet to reveal what appeared to be a sleeping woman, lying there on her side.

I let out a sharp breath. I wasn’t alone. This woman was here. But she was — what? Asleep? Dead? I wasn’t sure. She certainly wasn’t moving, and there was no sound of breathing. She clasped something in her hand, but I couldn’t see what it was.

“Uh, excuse me?” I said. My voice cracked. It felt like a very long time since I had used it. “Excuse me?” I said again, clearing my dry throat.

There was no response from the woman, who just continued to lie there. Although she wasn’t moving or making noise, she didn’t look dead, either. Her cheeks were still flushed with colour, her skin was still smooth, and there was no sign of decomposition anywhere. Was she dead, or just sleeping?

I looked her up and down, feeling slightly dirty and voyeuristic while doing so. She was a slender woman of I’d guess about thirty years of age. Her blonde hair fell around her shoulders but was obviously unkempt and unstyled while she lay in the bed. She was dressed in a black satin nightgown with small, thin straps which ran over her shoulders and then crossed over her back in an attractive pattern. She was good-looking, to be sure, but her pleasing appearance didn’t stop the lingering feeling of unease I had.

I reached out to grab her by the shoulder and shake her gently, then paused for a moment. What would I say? Being rudely awakened by a strange man shaking her was probably not how she wanted to start the day. On the other hand, it was possible that she was in the same position as I was — bereft of memories, feeling that she was alone, wondering whether life was still worth living.

I steeled myself and moved my hand to touch her. As soon as my fingertips made contact, however, I drew them sharply back with a horrified intake of breath.

Before my eyes, at my touch, the woman crumbled to dust, a cloud of which simply blew into the air and scattered around the room, as if she’d never really been there at all and I’d just been beating on a dusty old mattress.

Had I imagined it? My mind had certainly been playing tricks on me recently with the voice — Adam, I miss you, it said over and over in moments when I needed clarity of thought — but had I hallucinated the existence of the strange woman?

Then I saw it on the bed. A small black object — presumably the thing she’d been holding in her hand. It was a portable touchscreen phone. A white wire connected to the bottom of it at one end, and snaked off somewhere to the side of the bed at the other. I followed the wire and found it led to an electrical socket. I couldn’t tell from looking at it if it was still live or not, but felt it would be unlikely, given the surroundings.

My unspoken question was answered when the phone gave a soft buzz and its screen lit up, revealing a clock and a picture of a battery that appeared to be full. Curious, I reached out to pick up the phone, half expecting it to crumble to dust like the woman, but it remained reassuringly solid in my hand, but cold, like it had been kept in a fridge.

I pressed the only button I could see on the face of the phone. “Slide to unlock,” the screen said.

I obliged.